hahaha~! i am a superficial bitch after all~!! ian’s hair sucks.. realllll bad…i hate it..i felt like slapping him..and because of his hair we fought and i really hurt him..and u know what?? i don’t feel the slightest bit upset…..i think i may just be sick and tired enough to let this relationship go.. i mean?? hey??? i’m like willing to let go now just because he has a really bad haircut and he loves it and i hate it and i want it gone…and he doesnt..and im willing to make him pissed..insult him…hurt him..and not feel bad??

i mean?? is this the ginny we all know?? i used to cry whenever i shouted at him i would start crying…he looks at me wid those sad adorable eyes of his and i melt and have a break down… now?? because of his hair?? he looks….just not mine anymore…it’s like a slap across my face telling me…ian isn’t really yours…

i mean who on earth looks at her bf and feels like slapping him just because of a bad haircut?? that has to mean something?? and he can’t ACTUALLY say that looks is a factor to me..cuz?? i doubt it?? i mean…my ex…he’s cute yet??? i dunno..everybody used to say i was blind… i sound like a downright bitch now..lol… well thats not the point..and ian??

well somethings ppl just wont be able to understand…when u look at a person and u feel lost…like he isnt him anymore….then…everything just dissapears! just like that..u can tell a person’s cahnged..jsut by his or her appearance…and maybe..it is a factor… cuz now..thanks to his hideous hair.. my baby ian is no longer my baby ian~!!

geee..i wonder what im crapping about…and this may just bring me closer to letting go…how weird is that?? i guess i’ve changed as well…

ookkkayyy..long time didnt update di..my internet connection slow like hell…damn stress T_T… wuwuwuw..msn oso keep on kenot log in!! arghhh~!!! whyyy whyyyy whyyy

well anyyywayysss…i’ve skipped school for a total of 2 weeks…and nearly all the teacher’s arent speaking to me now… lol… haih…monday go school..lots of work to catch up on…exam next month… WOOHOO..n i dont know like 2 chapters from each subject?? well..maybe not so gan yu lar.. but..nearly ;P hahahaaaa

today it was kiwanis youth gathering..IT WAS SOOOOOO SADDDDDD….so many ppl didnt come but i still had fun anyway!~ heeeheeee….yerh..i sound so cacat..dunno wads up with me lately….the games were entertaining …hahahaa..kept laughing…n i dunno.. just had fun..ALTHOUGH i had to wake up at 5.30 in the morning…omg…..i cant believe i did that…reeally tired now..wanna sleep but i cant….!! waiting for my bro to go dinner.. BEEP…sarky person

yesterday..i FINALLLLY FINNNAALLYY watched Hitch!! quite nice! entertaining…hahah…dont think anything particularly interesting happened i guess?? can’t really remember… T_T

yes..i have developed an extremly severe case of short term memory…i know im ditzy n blur… but i seem to be getting worst…hahaha…comes with the lazyness i guesss

OHHH YEAAHHHH!! today!! UTTER HUMILIATION!! okay..not so bad..but still damn embarassing!! Hannah was suppose to sing welcome to my life by simple plan alone… right..so then it’s time for her performance.. and THE SEETTTEWWPPIIDD MC said that president n president of lower sec..will b presenting welcome to my life..and said my name..at first i didnt notice..although ian was like..eh..she call u..i tot he was joking so i ignored..until i heard them screaming at me GINNY!! ..n i stoned…. i didn’t know like 2/3 the lyrics of that song!!! and i was not aware i was suppose to sing it wid hannah..and hannah didnt know that either!! so i simply mumbled stuff out..and i think ppl could c…hhahahaa…and then 1 entire part..i just shut up coz i didnt know at all..n just stood there n laughed and smiled..!! HOW SAD!! T_T….. i have never been so … BEEP in my life…oh well…haha..wasnt that bad ler..i didnt c anybody laughing…besides Ian….T_T… AS USUAL……….

how do u believe in a relationship have faith in it..and trust another when nearly everyone around u n him…says something else?? people tell people not to hurt others yet they teach the person to hurt others by saying things like.. he’ll b going to college there r so amny other girls, u also wont noe what he do…. and aiya..dont so serious in this relationship lar..in college will have a lot better wan…so tell me?? why tell each other feelings arent meant to b played around with? is it because u’ve never had what u wish u did? so try destroying others??

(just a note..im not referring to anybody inparticular when u say u..just…a term??)

and ppl say age is a factor…and in college u will find better ppl bcuz they r generally wiser..how is that true?? as we grow older we lose our childlike simplyness and our innocence…we lose the abilty to forgive and forget..to love unconditionally…for example..a child…would never do things like hurt another intentionally and things like that…they do it out of the influence of others… as we grow older..our minds..lose it..we become emotional… and bad things go into our minds……how is it that we become wiser? if we became wiser? the earth wouldnt b in so much turmoil now…there would be no such things as racisicm…wars…descrimination…murders..suicides…

i dont know what im talking about..im just really confused right now…

hermmm….waiting waiting waiting..how much longer do i wait… i am sick sick sick…sick of this this this… BEEPP

newaayyyssss…haha..i accidentally gave ian a week’s exemption T_T..i tot it was just for the day until i went into his class n checked the paper…and noticed…eh..y the date so long wan T_T…den onli i realised…. BEEPP

nothing interesting happened ler… well sunday went back seremban..cheng meng.. after that came home..went leisure mall wid ian n watched miss congeniality 2..haha…quite entertaining oso ler… i guess…haih… my life getting so sien..nothing to blog about.. actually..have a lot of blog about bali..but im just to lazy atm.. WhaHAhHAHAHAHHA..

i amm sooooo sooo pissed right now!!! *breaths in,…breaths out*

at my trip to bali…we went to c balinese wood carvings..a specialty there..we went into a gallery…and 3 things caught my eyes instantly… i huggee life sized komodo dragon…whiiicchhh… my dad was actually thinking of buying…*unfortunately..it couldnt b put outside..so he didnt..cuz no place..but i reaaaalllyy wanted ittt…itss huggeee..bigger den me..and it looked sooo reaaaaall*

no 2… a life sized monkey… whichh wasss sooooo adorabllleeee..but my dad would never get that T_T..he wanted the komodo dragon as well because it looked so real and he wanted to put it at the mian gate to scare ppl T_T…………………..and also i kept stroking it and refused to bugged…lol… but he tot it was beautiful =D..my dad..thinking something i like was beautiful…amazing…

AND FINAAALLY..the thing im pissed about… 4 monkeys..hanging on each others tails.. each..slightly smaller den my fist…dangling on a branch……*love at 1st sight…* at that time..it reminded me so much of ian…and i could resist..and attack..monkeys in hand…bound off to my mother..where she glanced..and told me to ask my dad… runs to ddaaaaaddyy dearest..tells me later..he goes wandering……monkeys still in hand..walk sadly back to its branch..and places it back… follows the rest around…casually hinting about monkeys to dddaaaadyyy-kins ;P he den c’s a buddha head that gets his attention..but very expensive…he talks all sort of shit to the boss..and says..if the buddha likes me..i will have it..if it doesnt..then..too bad..nvm… and tries bargaining and bargaining..and i notice.if he buys my monkeys…he gets his buddha head the price he wants as well…. so i attack~!! telling him that i really want the monkey… *on cue… manja daughter look and whinyness* and how he will get the buddha cheaper… in the end..he said..where…and i brought him to my precious monkeys on its branch…he saw the price..n went into a stunned silence..and said NOOOOOOOOOO!!! den i look at him..and start whining again… and he finally looked at the boss and said..berapa ni?? untuk budak ni…mafan betul… and the guy gave discount >.< and daadddy dearestt paiidd 4 it~!!! it took like an hour for me to get them monkeyys~!!!

so now on to my pissedd of mood atm… i told my mother not to simply touch my stuff…and she..being MY IRRITATING INCONSIDERATE MOTHER wanted to display the monkeys for herself as part of the houseee decor.. without my knowledge..she then decides to place it on the glass sheft facing the second landing’s stairs….me…not noticing anything..minding my own business reading blogs and chatting..then hears a LOOUUUDD CRASHING sound…swivels head to the left..and screammss at the sight of my monkeys scattered on the floor…. and lil bits and pieces of wood all over…………………………………………………………………………………………………………