well…after my shower…n dinner..i feel better.. so i shall now brag about my japan trip XD wait..let me go on to crappier things 1st..like my exams!! arghhh..i think i did pretty badly!! arghh..especially my maths!! i have nooo idea what went wrong with me!!! i knew how to do it..but i kept like..writing weird things out @_@ and missing simple things like suqare rooting a number or minusing a number!!! garhhh~!! or counting wrongly or something!! there goes my tokyo trip T_T

well..if ure wondering..i was suppose to go tokyo for christmas with friends for a week…and for sum weird reason..my parents agreed to it..as long as i find part of my spending money myself AGAIN.. u_u…TOKYO for CHRISTMAS!! how cool is that..but my mum said.. only if my current exam is good T_T.. there goes..christmas in tokyo.. *whimpers*

right…japan… JAPAN WAS AMAZING!!! and i miss it there..i miss my host family..i miss the friends i met there..i miss everything!!! it was sooo cleannnnn and at night the breeze is just so nice.. and it’s sooo safe..even at night u can see little kids running around and young girls taking the train home alone!! XS but it’s so expensive there..sighhh

haha..actually i don’t have much to brag about as i was only there for a few days but it was totally awesome!!! i amm sooooo applying again next year!!! and hopefully the trip will b longer then!! MWhHAhAhAHhAH XD

she sat staring at her com..tears flowing down her cheeks. how stupid she felt to have trusted him. to fall into his trap. to let herself get hurt. she let her guard down and look what happened now. crying alone with nothing but doubts. first he lied to her. as if that wasnt enough. he dissed her in front of everyone else. in the middle of leisure mall. he threw her bag ring in front of her while happily laughing in her face. she stood there shocked waiting for him to come back. but all he did was walk off..with a smirk and a laugh. as she waited and waited..tears prickled her eyes. she could feel stares. coming from every single direction as her tears started to flow. she grabbed her bad and ran to the taxi stand. trying to get away. she heard him calling.she though he wanted to say sorry but all he wanted was to give her back her file. as she sat in the taxi he threw the file in. with a smile on his face. he happily laughed and the words *bye bye* came out and nothing else.

she let him out of her heart.she did it a month ago. but he kept coming back. how foolish this girl. to have fallen into his trap. wake up baby girl.this boy is not yours. time to wake up and find someone worth more.

im going to jap morrow..lots more things to do..that im nto done with TT … uh oh.. dum dum dum.. well..juz to inform u guys i’ll b in japan XD need to do my stuff now.. ciao ciao

i’ve never felt so..useless and helpless in my life… as i watched my baby girl lie in her cage…crying and struggling..she looked at me with those sad eyes..as if asking me why did i leave her there..why did i put her in that horrid cage..didn’t i love her anymore… i wanted to take her out..i really did..i stood there watching..my tears slowly but surely threatening to fall..but they wouldn’t let me..instead..all i could do was force my hands into the cage..hold her paw..and stroke her in between her eyes..her fav spot… she always fell asleep when i stroked her there… while she continued to stare at me with those sad eyes..filled wid pain…

she was in so much pain…yet..she kept pushing herself…fighting to stand…she did..once or twice..only to fall back down again n yelp out in pain…all i could do was watch… it broke my heart….i burst there and then..i cried..i didn’t want to leave… but my mother forced me to… i left my baby there..i left her alone..in that cage…. …. i’m sorry….im sorry baby girl..i didn’t mean to leave u alone…

*in loving memory of Chiko Yap/Low*

baby girl…i miss u and i love u…take care whever you are..i’ll always remember u…from the first day u licked and chewed my toes..to the last day u pushed ureself and tried to stand even if it hurt u so much…i’m sorry i couldn’t b there with u till the end… but i didn’t mean it.. i really really love u..n miss u.. take care baby girl..iu’ll always be in my heart *hugs n kisses*

yesterday…the lab+dal pup..suddenly couldn’t move her hind legs… it turns out there was some problems with her nerves…the doc tried giving medication… but it didn’t help… poor baby was put to sleep today…because it was to suffering.. her problem spread and reached her spinal cord..she couldn’t even chew her food… i guess…it was better to put her to sleep than make her suffer even more… but she was a sweetheart…she could melt ure heart easily … *love u baby*