i dont know how to express myself in words…im just so numb.. lost..hurt..confused.. sad.. angry.. all the bad things all at once..i want to cry.. but im so numb my tears wont flow properly.. they just stay in my eyes..refusing to ever flow down..my river of tears has dried up for the moment.. LOL..amazing isnt it?
i guess ive lost my spark….that energy to just fight and push and thrive for what i really want… my patience can no longer hold it..and neither can my brains nor my heart……
i want…i want to run away.. run away from everyone … on an island…… with nothing… but him…..but…thats like a dream..not even a dream anymore.. it’s more like a wish that will never come true….to be left alone with the one i love……. im a pure romantic at heart… and i do wish things like this happened..childish..immature..naive….thats me…
ppl might say what about other ppl…u never think of them wan meh…. but if i was left alone on that island with him..i would b happy.. honest i would.. then…if i was happy… wouldnt they b happy? and this u might wonder..what abt u? wouldnt he b happy if i let him do whateever..let him go..let him live his life in peace? im young..imature..im spoiled.. and..im selfish..
i want him to be mine..and mine only…..greedy..dumb……and a wish never to b fulfilled…….
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