WHAT THE HELL IN FUCKS NAME IS WRONG WITH MY GOD DAMN FAMILY?!?!?! wtf .. I CANT FRIGGIN STAND IT ANYMORE.. I CANT I BLOODY CANT..

like wth.. im here online n i get yelled at to come down and eat dinner..n i dont and sit here longer n they send the maid to get me.. so yahla..i go down get my food start eating as usual.. n my dad suddenly comes home den shoot me

so since im already nearly done i continue..den my bro shoots me also ask y arent i waiting for the rest of the family.. LIKE MAHAI.. everyday also i eat at home ALONE.. *WHICH I WOULD GLADLY WISH FOR EVERYDAY.. CUZ ITS MUCH BETTER THAN BEING SURROUNDED BY THEM* then today u all the idiots who kept screaming for me to come down and eat.. and then scold me..

LIKE DAMN POINTLESS..cuz i just left my already nearly done food on the table waited for everyone till my rice got cold for like 10-15 mins.. FINALLY continue eating.. LESS DEN a MINUTE.. IM DONE AND OFF.. LIKE HOW FRIGGIN POINTLESS AND STUPID IS THAT..

ARGHHHhHHHH!!! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.. I CANT FRIGGIN HANDLE THIS ANYMORE

*rolls eyes*

DADDYY DEAREST decided to have a talk with me.. and its funny.. i get everything he says i know everything and exactly what he means.. but mahai.. wth he wants.. as if im going to force myself to give respect for no damn reason… PLEASE la.. maybe AS HE INSIST..i just dont understand yet.. but i do.. i know.. but sometimes you just cant change your feelings…

AND GAWD DAMN HIM… start talking rubbish abt me and bad words.. mother.. bad words are just words.. i can make anything a bad word wad.. a bad word is a word used in anger or some crap like that onli wad.. chi bai..i can say FISH U LAR.. same meaning only lor.. so bloody sensitive for wad.. open ure damn minds a bit lar…

fucking irritating okay..he talk to me so nicely for like an hour..i felt nothing… NOT A THING… i just either ignored him..answered him back whatever he said till he was at a lost for words OR STARE AT HIM till he looked away… huhuhuhu…

i know im a bad daughter.. but i cant help it.. i didnt do anything wrong and they always treat like i do things that r stupid n accuse me of like smoking drugs n rubbish like that then use all those rubbish to restrict me..den FINE LAR… i also move furthur away..and CONGRATULATIONS.. U DID IT!! i no longer feel or want to have anything to do with this family =] cheers

I HATE MY EFFING PARENTS..

I HATE THEIR EFFING GUTS

NO.. i will not regret my words… because i have never felt sympathy for them in my life

i watch my father hit my mother n stood there without a hint of sadness… i watched as if watching a cat walk by..

i watched my mother cry in front of me.. and i rolled my eyes at the very sight of it..

i watch her fall flat on the ground in the car park and break her toenails.. n even break her glasses..i stood there and burst out laughing…

i look at my father sick.. and i can’t help but feel happy cuz GOOD.. he can’t fucking make my life even crappier than it is…

i take money from their wallets.. in fact i steal money from their wallets.. without the slightest hint of regret or guilt…

i feel nothing for them… as i have for more than 4 years…i buy them presents.. only because i have too and not because i want to…

I HATE IT WHEN THEY TOUCH ME…

i hate it when they are even a few inches next to me

i get annoyed when i see them…

honestly sometimes i wonder.. do i really belong in this family? i am the blacksheep.. i look nothing like them… i have nothing in common with the rest of my family.. I DONT EVEN SEEM LIKE A PROPER CHINESE… like whats up with that..?? was i adopted maybe?? or is my father someone else?

why dont i belong? why dont i fit it?? why do i hate being near them.. why do i want to run away so badly..

i just can’t take it anymore… just take me away…away from the people who are meant to be closest to me.. for they bring nothing but pain..hurt..frustration and sadness…

IAN LOW FUCK YI…

ITS GREAT TO KNOW HOW *loved* I WAS.. n its great to know how *cherished* I WAS… AND OH YEAH~~ ITS ALL MY FUCKING FAULT!!

IM SORRY I LIED TO U

IM SORRY I CHEATED ON U

IM SORRY I SLAPPED U

IM SORRY I PUSHED U ON THE FLOOR

IM SORRY I TIED A BELT AROUND URE NECK AND TRIED TO SUFFOCATE U

IM SORRY I PUSHED URE HEAD AGAINST THE MIRROR AND NEARLY SHATTERED IT

IM SORRY I USED YOUR MONEY LIKE WATER

IM SORRY I SCOLDED U WHEN I WAS THE 1 LYING JUST SO THAT MY LIE WOULD SEEM MORE REAL

IM SORRY FOR ALWAYS MAKING U SAD AND CRY

IM SORRY FOR ALWAYS NEGLECTING AND ABUSING U…

IM SORRY I NEVER STOOD UP FOR U

IM SORRY I WATCHED U CUT YOURSELF

IM SORRY I CONSTANTLY DEMANDED U COME SEE ME IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT DEMANDING U SNEAK OUT OF THE HOUSE AND TAKE A CAB AND WHEN U DIDNT I GOT ANGRY AT U

IM SORRY I CONSTANTLY MADE EMPTY PROMISES

IM SORRY I EVEN MADE CONTRACTS WITH U AND THEN PRETENDED THEY NEVER EXISTED

IM SORRY I THREW YOUR CAMERA TILL IT BROKE AND THEN DENIED THAT I EVEN TOUCHED IT JUST BECAUSE I HAD NO MONEY AND U REFUSED TO GIVE ME SOME

IM SORRY I THREW YOUR HANDPHONE ON THE FLOOR

IM SORRY I CAME TO YOUR HOUSE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT WITH A BIG GROUP OF PPL AND STARTED HORNING AND MAKING YOUR PARENTS COME OUT

IM SORRY I ALWAYS MADE PLANS WITH U BUT LEFT U ALONE TO BE WITH MY FRIENDS

IM SORRY I SLAPPED YOU FOR ANOTHER GUY

IM SORRY I LIED ABOUT HOW I LOVED YOU..NEEDED YOU AND HOW I WANTED TO CHANGE FOR U

IM SORRY FOR RESTRICTING THE WAY YOU DRESSED

IM SORRY FOR NOT LETTING YOU GO OUT WITH OLD FRIENDS THAT U HAVENT SEEN IN AGES OR PRETENDING THAT I WAS FINE AND WHEN I DID GO OUT AFTER YOUR OKAY YOU SCREAMED ENDLESS AMOUNTS OF INSULTS AT ME SAYING I DINDT RESPECT YOU AND I DIDNT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT U

IM SORRY I WENT INTO YOUR MSN PRETENDED TO BE YOU AND FUCKED EVERY GUY..OPPS..I MEAN GIRL ON YOUR LIST AND NEVER EVEN APOLOGISED FOR IT

IM SORRY I TOOK YOUR PHONE AND CONSTANTLY MISSED CALLED THE GUYS.. EH .. I MEAN GIRLLLSSS WHO U DIDNT WANT TO TALK TO

IM SORRY I DELETED OTHER GUYS..EH..*hmm..i wonder why i keep typing guys ah* I MEAN GIRLS NUMBERS FROM YOUR HANDPHONE

IM SORRY I ALWAYS GO OUT WITH YOU AND YOUR FRIENDS AND I GO THROUGH TANTRUMS DEMANDING TO GO HOME EVERY SINGLE TIME WITHOUT EVEN BEARING WITH IT FOR 10 MINUTES UNLESS WE”re WATCHING A MOVIE

IM SORRY I ALWAYS DEMAND YOU COME TO MY HSE INSTEAD OF ME GOING TO YOURS

MOST OF ALL.. IM SORRY FOR TREATING U LIKE A DOG…. *kononnya lah…*

IM OH SO VERY SORRY!!! *smirks*

THANKS FOR A FUCKING GREAT 2 YEARS OF *love* AND IM SOOO FUCKING SORRY IF IVE ALWAYS TAKEN U FOR GRANTED AND USED U FOR MY OWN BENEFITS!! HONEST I AM

ive never said i hated u.. ive never wished u were dead.. ive never really gave a damn abt u.. at least.. never until today..

honestly.. i wished u were dead…

u have brought nothing to this family.. but agony n pain..so yeah u brought me into this life.. but what have u ever given me.. u took in a mistress.. u gave her all ure money.. u hit my mother.. u even tried to hit me… u abuse my pets.. the only babies that kept me sane.. u even made my baby milo go limp.. thank god he made it.. and its amazing he even forgave you for that… u threw him in the rain after u hit him he cried..n was bleeding.. and when i tried to get him.. u threatened to do the same to me… u killed so many animals.. u killed half of my pets..

u barely gave me enough money.. u called me stupid..u called me trash.. i always got pretty good results.. i have never done anything really bad.. u accused me of rubbish.. and called my friends spoiled..stupid..irresponsible and arrogant. what abt u.. u fucking jack ass…

so what if ure company’s going bankrupt… that aint really my fault.. it’s ure arrogance.. stupidity and ure payment for all the pain u’ve caused… i never really gave a damn.. i still treated u like my dad… true i didnt really show it.. but i never showed u the least signs of disrespect…

i didnt give a damn when u had another family… u deny it exist… not that ive ever asked… for i respected ure choice.. i know being with her isnt the easist of task.. i whined not i said nothing.. i just smiled and greeted u when u came back…

u never really gave a damn… so why the hell do u want to act like u care.. because u know what.. I FUCKING HATE URE FUCKING GUTS.. not of what u did in ure past… but the fact u think im trash.. n the fact u think im so fucking stupid.. that i’ll end up being some roadside prostiture or some crap like that..

u dont give me respect…u dont even give me money.. not for books.. not for food..yeah true.. once in a while when i went on holiday u would give me money.. but what about other times.. u critisize everything i do.. FUNNY.. i seem to be doing way better than u..

u make decisions without asking me.. U FUCKING COMPLAIN u have no money.. and u decide to take out 1 k..to send me on a fucking 4 day seminar.. where im not allowed to come back… without even asking my consent..WTF R U THINKING….. HOW OLD DO U THINK I AM…at least ask me… dont just bloody do things thinking that its the best…

u fucking banned me from going to my friends hse.. u fucking dont let me stay in their houses… WITH THE REASON IM 16 NOW… ure so easy to be taken advantage off.. LIKE WTF… oh yeah..my freinds of more then 5 years r suddenly going to go crazy n raped n murder me now..

the older i get the more u treat me like a child… GROW UP… im not your little princess … NEVER WAS.. NEVER WILL BE.. and NEVER WANT TO BE….

just give me my fucking life back….