….im going to die in corea T_T…im only going to be given 1 k for 6 days.. T_T.. this is murder…… they r throwing me out in a foreign country we barely any money to use……. T_T… i am a shopaholic who cant keep money for nuts… how will i ever survive this ordeal? what about lotte world?? what about my han bok? what about all the food T_T…

….i spend 3 k in japan for 4 days.. and it wasnt enough.. @_@.. how will i ever survive……..

please donate to Ginny Yap’s Corea fund… thank you u_u

im agitated right now T_T.. i wanted to go eat ice cream at 2.. it’s 2.30 now.. AND MY DAD IS SITTING IN THE DAMN LIVING ROOM!! garhh!! GO TO SLEEP MAN GO TO SLEEP!! so i can walk out of the house without having to answer to your rubbish questions T_T..

*blinks* ……………….

haih..i have nothing much to blog yet i feel like blogging “=_= .. granted..i am weird..

well..i’ll b off to corea in approcimately 36 hours… and seriously.. i dont particularly feel like it u_u… why? i have no idea… just feel so lazy to get ready and stuff.. added with the fact im super broke and in some sort of emo depressed semi dead body mode…….

i want retail therapy T_T……… SIGH……..

well..something stupid and interesting happened on friday but im too much of a lazy arse to blog about it now.. i think ill go bathe my dogs or something @_@.. ciaoz people

i dreamt… of more lies and betrayal………. my heart hurts a lot right now…… even in my dreams he haunts me…… i wonder how long before i break

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on another note..my health is seriously retarded..i tot i got my period today………but it onli lasted like when my urine infection was really bad.. and i didn’t think it could have been because of my urine..cuz like..usually if i bleed cuz of my infected..its just a tint of blood in the water.. THIS TIME I WAS HAVING A FULL FLEDGE URINE OUT LOTS AND LOTS OF BLOOD..urine totally BLOOD like period kind..this strated at around 11 …and by 1-2 …. i havent bled till now @_@.. NOT EVEN A SLIGHT HINT OF BLOOD…….. dear gawd.. am i dying? …

i dont know what’s with my emoness..maybe it’s pms.. cried at 2-3.30 until i fell asleep.. and now im crying again after reading the story of Mercy and watching the animated video of the rainbow bridge at youthforhumaty.tripod.com ……

sometimes it’s a wonder why we’re brought into this world.. with people so cruel and yet full of people so nice….. keep the balance? when one meets this cruel kind .. the hardship brought upon them is so much..that sometimes it’s a wonder we still survive…

i wonder…what’s my purpose in life? ….

i dont even feel like going corea anymore..i just want to sleep the rest of the year away… sigh…