DEAR IAN LOW,
please don’t leave pointless comments saying you love me and crap like that because you know you don’t. you don’t know what it means to love someone . you only know the word need. need does not mean love. ive heard you tell me you hate me and that im a useless bitch who u pity and that’s the only reason you’re with me one too many times.AND CONGRATULATIONS. because i believe you.
i believe every word you say when you tell me you don’t love me. i believe every word you say when you say you hate me. but i dont believe you when you say you don’t need me. because you very bloody well do. UNFORTUNATELY. that’s it. NEED. and not love. Thank you for telling me im your one and only and that you love me. because. I. DONT. BELIEVE. A. WORD. YOU. SAY.
don’t tell me you’re sorry. you know you’re not. don’t tell me you didn’t mean to hit me or yell at me. YOU KNOW YOU MEANT IT WITH ALL YOUR HEART.
i’m the one who should be sorry. sorry i always fell for your lies. sorry i always forgave you. sorry i wasted 2 and a half years worth of tears. time. and memory. i’m the one who should be sorry. not you. because u clearly told me you didn’t love me so many times but i never really listened. well. now i’m listening. and i believe you.
i hate you so much. yet i can’t stop myself from loving you…. please….. i beg of you…… JUST. LEAVE. ME. ALONE. and stop my pointless tears.
we can’t just be friends. you know this so well. so please. stop it. i don’t want to be in an open relationship. i don’t want to see you everyday and feel you yet knowing you’re not mine. you may think that it’s better this way and we’re happier. but that’s just you. because you hate commitment.
im different. i need commitment. i need to know that you will always be mine. and that you really do love me.i cant live on lust itself. it hurts me more than you will ever know. you use to see the spark of me. the ginny who could run around all day with a smile on her face. you know she’s dissapeared. and you know very well why.
so please think of what you’re doing to me. please. make your decision. this thing can’t drag on forever. just CHOOSE. just close your eyes and choose. and this time. stick to it.
you know that i will forever accept you back no matter what you do. but don’t. don’t do this to me.at least not anymore. im close to my limit. i know you know this too. you can see it too.
don’t break me. just choose.
you know i love you.
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