la la la..im in cameron waiting for the bus now… but ill just post this up 1st.. straight copy n paste from ze pinkpau ;p

let’s play a game!

ask for my top 3 anything, and i will answer as honestly as i can.

but first, i reserve the right to ignore top 3 questions from lame anonymous people who dare to ask big questions but dont dare leave an identity -_-

and please put this up on your blogs as well, so i can go ask you a top 3 question too

A few years back… i was materialistic and i liked guys not for their personality but their looks. and i made it a point to never be commited in relationships and only got for guys if there were cute or really rich…taking them only as flings.. it never happened.

i found girls who were so devoted to their boyfriends stupid and believed that it was only right if the guy worshipped the girl and not the other way round…never really thought about how it would be if i ever really played a guy…

funny how things changed. getting into a relationship. it turned out i was one of those stupid girls. those that cried their eyes out nearly each day just because their boy was too busy with his friends. One who forgave no matter what happened and just continued to stick with him through all the pain he’d put me through.

i never did really appreciate my previous relationship. i dont think i was ever that much commited to that relationship either. and my ex saw through me. he accused me of not loving him many times but i would just laugh and say he was being stupid and i loved him more than anything in the world and i would love him forever. i didn’t lie. i really didn’t. i just didn’t mean love in the way it was meant to be.

this time. it might be the same thing. possible it is. but why was i so unwilling to put myself into the pain to be with my other ex and torture myself for 2 years for the sake of this 1 boy? do things i would never do. sacrifice things i thought were important to me once. let my heart and mind be tortured in ways that it has never been?

till this day. things havent really changed. i though i could just stand up and walk away. in fact i know i could. but the thing is. i don’t really want to. why? is it because he’s become so much apart of my life that we even grow the same pimples on the same exact spots @_@ yes.seriously. no JOKE. not all the time but occasionally. to the extent that we look so alike people often mistake us for siblings. predict each others move yet never really understanding why.and change just isn’t something im fond of. or is it really love for real this time?

whats love really? it’s described by so many different people in different ways. who’s right? who’s wrong? who’s to say what it is or how it’s suppose to be? is it just a word we made up to make us believe in such *fairytales* …or does it truly mean something?

so what is this im feeling? love? care? or just plain habit….

hello aliens..

i am back from the dead.. still very busy especially with my maxis project.. you can check out the site HERE..it’s finally up and running.. but a lot of under construction..hehehehe… and im looking for sponsors.. so if you guys know any rich animal lovers like datuks and stuff.. PLEASE DO TELL ME ASAP!!

AND WHY YOU ALL DONT SIGN MY ONLINE PETITION WAN!! T_T.. DAMN GERAM OKAY!! i didn’t think i would be able to collect more hand written petitions than the online wan “=_= cis.. GO GO GO..the link is in the previous post.. I SAY GO!! I CAN SEE WHO SIGN WAN….. JUST SO YOU KNOW….

well.. i don’t know what to blog about.just that im really busy..and if you guys want to volunteer and book a bow wow limited edition t-shirt do tell me.. it will be selling at RM25 and all profits will be given to animal shelters =) really.. ITS NICE WAN LAR OKAY! i know you all trust my fashion wan u_u .. its a black t shirt.. the design will be posted onto the website site later on.. but a lot of things to do now.. so huhuhu….

I WANT TO FREEZE TIME >=( …

and i will redo my blog layout EVENTUALLY.. when i get the time..really super busy!!! morrow got SBU charity dinner summoh.. aicks aicks… WHY SO MANY THIGNS TO DO WAN!! *cries*

OMG FUCKING GOD………I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED MY TEMPLATE!! OMFG!! ALL IS LOSTTTTTTTTTTT!!! OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!! IM GOING TO CRY LIKE SERIOUSLY…………………. CAN SOMEONE TELL ME HOW TO RECOVER IT

i am so sad right now T_T..i was damn happy cuz my scrollbox on the maxis thing works.. courtesy of shan lynn.. I LOVE YOU!!! *kiss kiss*

but now..im sad.. T_T.. why.. BECAUSE THE MUSICAL I REALLY REALLY WANT TO WATCH.. PUTERI GUNUNG LEDANG IS COMPLETELY SOLD OUT…..unless the online ticketing system is tricking me! WHO GOT TICKETS!! WANNA SELL TO ME ANNOT..or better still.. GIVE ME!!