you know what. after 8 years. nothing has changed. i still hate the fact of a bunch of people liking u at 1 shot. you think they are your friends. and when you’ve got someone or you dont take anyone of them. you quite likely lose them as friends and they think you’re a bitch for leading them on when you never really did that. though some of them say that’s not true. it’s pretty obvious.
ever since kindergarden. i think the only time this hadn’t happen was last year when i was with ian. because no one dared too.
and this year it’s started up again.
and i don’t get why people think i love being around tons of people and i like socialising. because i dont. i dont like big crowds. i don’t like big groups. if i do go to a party or clubbing. it’s only because i want to spend time with a particular someone or it’s someone who i care about birthday.
i find small groups and going out 1 on 1 with a person so much better because there’s so much more interaction going on. and everything is just so much more personal. when there’s a big group. there’s bound to be smaller groups within so whats the freaking point of that?
argh.. i dont know lar. tired and sleepy.
but someone just had to do the whole i liked you. i did everything for u. and look how u treat me thing. I JUST WANTED TO BE FRIENDS. AND I MADE IT CLEAR MY HEART WAS WITH IAN. SO WHAT DO U EXPECT FROM ME.
