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would u rather be the girl. the random girls he would suddenly pick up on. the ones he calls and sms-es and looks for whenever he has a fight with his gf or he’s irritated at her. he may kiss you or hug you or whatever but only because you just happen to be there. what if you had feelings for him. what if you think that he actually has feelings for you seeing as his gf gets jealous at you when fact and reality is it’s just her nature.
maybe he really does like you. maybe he really does have feelings. but who really knows? is this better? as there is no actual commitment. like a fling. but it’s not really a fling because he never admits anything. all he ever says is we’re just friends. and we havent done anything. but everytime you see his number on your phone your heart lights up. everytime you see him you just want to hold him tight. sometimes he holds you as well. and he lies to his gf that he’s with someone else when in fact he’s with you.
but in the end he always goes back to her. his gf. whom he always tells you that he’s already broken up with. could you live with it? knowing after he leaves you he goes back to her. and he’s holding her. kissing her. carassing her. sometimes he does it even in front of you. maybe you would feel better because he lies to her but not to you. would that mean anything? or is he really protecting her? or maybe just himself. or is it just a sign that you actually really mean nothing to him? which is it??
or would you rather be his gf. the one he’s been with for quite a while now. but whom he always lies to and is never really sure about. 1 minute he tells you he loves you 1 minute he tells you to leave. he strays and looks for other girls when ever you guys have a fight but in the end you know he always comes back. but could you live with that? could you hold him knowing a few hours ago he was holding someone else? why does he come back? is it because he really does love you? but if he did why does he hurt you so?
who would you rather be? in fact. who would i rather be as well? sighh.. just some random ponderings
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so the cycle restarts itself. we went out to sit on some swings overlooking kl last night. lol. he spent the night. and we went to watch eragon today which IS NOT BAD LOR SAM. SUMMOH THE DRAGON SO DAMN FRIGGIN CUTE.. OH OH OH and i finally bought a new speaker!! HAUHAUHA.. IN THE SHAPE OF A PIG SUMMOH!.. ladidadida
aih…
don’t even know what im blogging about. very restless right now @_@
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