Lily Allen – Little Things

Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissing
And I remember when you started calling me your Mrs
All the play fighting
All the flirtatious disses

I’d tell you sad stories about my childhood
I dunno why I trusted you but I knew that I could

We’d spend the whole weekend
Lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy
In your boxers and your t-shirt

Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, it seems
That I can’t shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too
The littlest things that take me there

I know it sounds lame but it’s so true
I know it’s not right but it seems unfair
That thing’s are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on
Tell me
Is this the end?

Drinkin’ tea in bed, watchin’ DVD’s
When I discovered all your dirty, grotty magazines
You’d take me out shopping
And all we’d buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us

The first time that you introduced me to your friends
And you could that tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
When I was feeling down, you’d make that face you do
There’s no-one in the world who could replace you

Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, it seems
That I can’t shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it’s so true
I know it’s not right but it seems unfair
That thing’s are reminding me of you

Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on
Tell me
Is this the end?

stop confusing me!!

dont tell me you love me and you want to be with me 1 minute only to diss me the next..

what is it you really want??!

please….stop hurting me…

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would u rather be the girl. the random girls he would suddenly pick up on. the ones he calls and sms-es and looks for whenever he has a fight with his gf or he’s irritated at her. he may kiss you or hug you or whatever but only because you just happen to be there. what if you had feelings for him. what if you think that he actually has feelings for you seeing as his gf gets jealous at you when fact and reality is it’s just her nature.

maybe he really does like you. maybe he really does have feelings. but who really knows? is this better? as there is no actual commitment. like a fling. but it’s not really a fling because he never admits anything. all he ever says is we’re just friends. and we havent done anything. but everytime you see his number on your phone your heart lights up. everytime you see him you just want to hold him tight. sometimes he holds you as well. and he lies to his gf that he’s with someone else when in fact he’s with you.

but in the end he always goes back to her. his gf. whom he always tells you that he’s already broken up with. could you live with it? knowing after he leaves you he goes back to her. and he’s holding her. kissing her. carassing her. sometimes he does it even in front of you. maybe you would feel better because he lies to her but not to you. would that mean anything? or is he really protecting her? or maybe just himself. or is it just a sign that you actually really mean nothing to him? which is it??

or would you rather be his gf. the one he’s been with for quite a while now. but whom he always lies to and is never really sure about. 1 minute he tells you he loves you 1 minute he tells you to leave. he strays and looks for other girls when ever you guys have a fight but in the end you know he always comes back. but could you live with that? could you hold him knowing a few hours ago he was holding someone else? why does he come back? is it because he really does love you? but if he did why does he hurt you so?

who would you rather be? in fact. who would i rather be as well? sighh.. just some random ponderings

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so the cycle restarts itself. we went out to sit on some swings overlooking kl last night. lol. he spent the night. and we went to watch eragon today which IS NOT BAD LOR SAM. SUMMOH THE DRAGON SO DAMN FRIGGIN CUTE.. OH OH OH and i finally bought a new speaker!! HAUHAUHA.. IN THE SHAPE OF A PIG SUMMOH!.. ladidadida

aih…

don’t even know what im blogging about. very restless right now @_@

LOL… its only 1.06 am.. and already the promise is broken..

to top that off… we fought and said its better if we just stop seeing each other again.. this would be the 397429837427458273583840 time………

things really never do change… not even after 2 and a half years……

… well… looks like no more kuantan ……

he said he’ll teman me 3 days 2 nights .. let’s see if he keeps his word….