was talking to a friend i havent talked to in ages and he said something about people around me being two faced.
but the thing about people around me. i guess everyone is two faced one way or another. me included. when we’re angry at someone we talk bad about that person no matter how close he/she is to us. but sometimes it doesnt really mean anything and real friends are the friends who know you talk bad about them and yet accept the fact that they do.
maybe the things they say actually does reflect something bad about you and maybe we should just accept it and listen. hm. i actually dont know where im going with this post because whatever i intentionally wanted to write about just dissapeared from my head for some weird reason @_@
blah. bottom line. everyone is two faced. so no point complaining about it ;p
on another note. sitting at the table today it felt really akward as we sat side by side avoiding each other’s gaze. a tense silence enveloped the table and no words passed between us except for the occasional quiet word or two.
and hour and a half passed with such unfamiliarity it choked me and all i could do was stare at my paper and pretend to write even when there was nothing to written. all so the time would pass a little faster and i could escape this unfamiliar world.
u got up from the table and hurried the others maybe for the same reasons i wanted to leave the table. as u stood there and our gaze finally met. you smiled that familiar smile yet it just wasnt the same. but at that moment. all feelings of regret and sadness melted away and im reminded of the past we once had. the smile that i was met with nearly everyday just a while back.
you’ve lost a lot of weight my dear friend. it kind of scares me to think how much you must be putting yourself through right now and i wish i could show you how much i really care. but i cant and i think you can probably understand how hard it is to turn back to what it once was. impossible it’s not but i guess it takes a little more time and effort.
i dont really know what to say.
but i hope you know how much you mean to me.
and you forgot your birthday presents again.
and your black pants have been uncovered.
