there is only so much shouting and screaming i can take in a day. insults hurled at me while i watch my rabbit die. insults not relevant just annoying and yet never ending from the moment she steps into the house to the moment she falls asleep. that is the only time im at peace.

i need to get away from this place.

before i lose myself.

oh wow “=_= referring to the below post. now i have it too. wtf

why is everyone on my msn list complaining of diarrhoe @_@ or however u spell that stupid word >=(

my female rabbit is depressed right now due to the death of my male rabbit who died of some unknown severe trauma and died in the vet this morning.

if anybody knows where i can get a male adult rabbit thats friendly please do let me know. thanks.

have u ever looked into the eyes of a dying pet as he lay on the table of the vet. watch as he twitches in that disturbing way. and yet despite the fact that he cant move. stuggles to twist his head at an angle where his eyes bore directly into yours. our gaze is held as you watch tears slowly but surely flow out. and then suddenly he opens his mouth and lets out a cry so pityful. one you have never heard before as he continues to stare right at you as if asking;

why did you leave him. why weren’t you there when everything happened. every form of a why question unseemingly aimed right at you and your heart breaks and you feel nothing but guilt and an undeniable sadness overcomes and now it’s your turn to spill your tears.

please fight and survive my baby bun bun. i’m sorry i dont know what happened and im sorry i wasnt there when it happened. but fight baby.i know you’re stronger than that.you’ve survived being abused and somehow found your way to me. so fight. i know you can.

(edit : it’s screwed up that the vets in malaysia never really know what to do with a hamster or a rabbit. most of them only know about dogs and cats.

and i tell myself.

i will be different.

because they just let my rabbit die.)