Friday, November 30, 2007
She's on the psp.. playing some game i'm supposed to be finishing - Juiced 2. Didn't know she's be playing that. Now she's hogging it.This will be a post of myself instead. Can't wait to get my DX10 graphic card! Games to list!
Crysis
Gears of War
NFS Pro Street
And in 2008, the debut of Assassin's creed which is already out for the PS3 and XBOX360.
Poor baby, the PSP's battery just died.
anyway i went for the sale and oh my god everything was so cheap and I HAVE NO SELF RESERVE. T_T I FUCKING BOUGHT 10 THONGS. 3 BRAS. a silk blindfold eye mask thingie with matching silf cuffs and a bunch of mini shower gels T_T OH MY GOD. WHY THE HELL DO I NEED MORE THONGS. WTF.
anyway i came online to tell you that i intended to blog about the taylors thing but im sleepy now and so i am going to sleep. good bye
but i have a casting to attend and i need to get my dress in the curve. but..? oh god.. oh god.. maybe just a little peek.
like oh my gooodddd... he was so hyper and bubbly throughout the whole performance wonderful kept insisting he was high on drugs and even the boy started cheering really loudly for him which is like damn rare @_@ i swear he was so damn adorable on stage and the things he said were like just sooo cuteee larr!! aihyo. u just had to be there!!
rick price was no dissapointment either. although maybe not to a lot of people because his songs were quite slow paced so at times it tended to get too draggy since most of the ppl were there got james morrison but it was all good for me =D although i wish i could have just cuddles up on a couch or be lying in bed while he sang. his songs have that kind of feel if you know what i mean. and a few were so sad i felt like crying when he sang them T_T and i think he sounds better live which is like a very rare thing in singers now adays. oh he's damn cute also. his actions and all that lar i mean.
and the malaysian singer. okay i forgot her name. dayang something. was actually pretty good! the whole time all i heard was complaints and bad reviews on her but i thought she was surprisingly good. and the song she sang. her own. I LIKE IT. she does have a slightly annoyingly high voice though but wtf. why am i complaining abt ppl's voice. i've got a weird voice too. but i loved her shoes. omg. her shoes. i want them because they match my prom dress.
speaking ofd prom dresses. i havent actually bought it but i fell in love with one in curve yesterday and didnt have the cash so i told them to keep it for a day and im not sure if they did but i'll be so angry if they didnt cuz i HATE looking for prom dresses and i really like this one T_T and it's the last one T_T.
okay. im talking in a very weird accent. i think it's because of the lack of sleep. im going back to sleep. toodles.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
im not sure why exactly is it that im so easily annoyed and angered today. i have tried to pinpoint the reasons but i cant really conclude on one. maybe its the death of my rabbit. or maybe it's something else im really not sure.but i just couldnt stop thinking about this one girl i recently saw in 1u and a story i heard about her and what happened between her and someone relatively close to me and i begin to wonder. was i that dumb at 15? i certainly hope not.
i have only seen her once and at only a glance. i fell in love with the dress she was wearing and asked my friend to enquire where she got the dress which she very annoyingly answered theres only one in the whole world. please lar darling. u think you're the queen ah ppl purposely sew clothes for you meh. this already threw me off her but maybe she was telling the truth and i guess this isnt the real reason im angry at her. for what right do i have to be pissed off at someone i dont even know.
but the thing is. she had a thing going on with my said friend who so happened to be of another race. she was all over him and send him cute little love struck messages that i thought were the sweetest things ever. you know how it is. the feeling of having your first bf/gf. the lovey dovey messages and feelings that just seem to appear from everywhere.
well this said girl has a sister of the age 20. WHO I MUST ADD IS FUCKING ASSWIPE. fuck you. i dont know you but who the hell do you think you are condeming people of other races? just because you dont fucking date outside your race doesnt mean you should bloody tell your sister off for being in such a relationship. i bet if the dude was some english guai lou you would be all over him because what. guai lous are hot and better righ. so fucking typical. hypocrite. i hate people who have this mindset. and okay lar everyone has their own views so fine. but is it really neccessary to dissallow your siblings to do so? sigh i dont know what to say lar. but im just freaking angry.
and you. the 15 yr old girl with no balls. yeah. im quite well aware that females have no balls but im talking hypothetically lar. so what? jsut because your sister said something so automatically you jsut dump the guy? AND WHATS BETTER. you actually had the fucking GUTS TO ask "can i take back what i said?" OMFG. what is wrong with you. you're bloody 15 turning 16 next year. you can't seriously be that childish can you? i have so much more to say to you but i doubt you will even read this so i'll save my efforts.
but you know what. girls like you just dont deserve guys like him.
screw you.
i need to get away from this place.
before i lose myself.
if anybody knows where i can get a male adult rabbit thats friendly please do let me know. thanks.
why did you leave him. why weren't you there when everything happened. every form of a why question unseemingly aimed right at you and your heart breaks and you feel nothing but guilt and an undeniable sadness overcomes and now it's your turn to spill your tears.
please fight and survive my baby bun bun. i'm sorry i dont know what happened and im sorry i wasnt there when it happened. but fight baby.i know you're stronger than that.you've survived being abused and somehow found your way to me. so fight. i know you can.
(edit : it's screwed up that the vets in malaysia never really know what to do with a hamster or a rabbit. most of them only know about dogs and cats.
and i tell myself.
i will be different.
because they just let my rabbit die.)
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
i wonder why does shisha always make me feel like shitting @_@its like an instant temporary cure for constipation
i know. super old right. but there were just tooooo many pics and due to the extreme amount of pictures im only going to caption some.
and in case you're wondering why am i wearing a jacket and that i look funny. IT WAS COLD OKAY T_T.
and credits to eric n yu yang for most of the pictures.
goner.
hearts
me like this
the water was freezing
cute leh my card ;p
omg.. orgasms. hajime has probabaly got to be one of the few places in kl with really fresh sashimi. generous portions too. JUST LOOK AT THAT WEI.
and baby loves their makis.
wasabi ice cream. honestly. i think it was pretty good. just a word of warning. if u intend to eat other flavours eat this last because everything will taste bland after this. and no it isnt as painful as pure wasbi.
only stupid pictures like this happen when im around these 2.
jeng jeng jeng. actually not bad la. seeing how many ppl were there.
cute sticker
love this bottle.
R.I.P
damn cool wei the leaf.
god im hungry.
yes. that is wasabi.
this is aaron! the only person who let me drive his car. well. added with the fact that he was drunk and it was either that or be stranded. hahaha. wtf
0_o
Monday, November 26, 2007
i am probabaly the dumbest fuck ever. i cant believe i totally 100% screwed up my bio experiment. like wtf. AGAIN? why am i like messing up all the experiments but this time it's totally out except for the aim and statement of problem. wtf.of all experiments i totally ignored that experiment because that particular chapter came out like quite often in paper 1 and 2. and wtf it came out and i totally didnt know what to do. and just crapped and apparently crapped wrongly for that matter. and whats even better. the experiment was done in class before "=_= lol. serves me right for not going to school i guess @_@
goodbye a.
AGAIN. @_@.
(edit: oh. but after the exam someone did brighten up my day.someone ive been in the same class with for 2 years whom ive barely ever spoken too came up to talk to me and told me that he didnt really talk to me cuz he had a huge crush on me. it's nice to find out such surprises after a crappy paper and it definitely put a smile on my face. thank you =) it's just nice to know that even the most random people can tell you something which makes you feel good )
bleargh
Sunday, November 25, 2007
hohoohh..i was just informed by the bf that mr short attention span from the previous post had only played against 1 bot and not multiple bots!! MWAHHAHA. this makes me feel much better *O*
this morning at about 4 am i woke up with a start.running and hiding was the dream that had woken me. a dream that i have had more than once before just with little changes here and there. repetitive dreams scare me. they usually have meanings. and this month i've been having a lot of deja vu moments. moments that i'm pretty sure i dreamt about if not actually went through.
a while ago the bf woke me up.and again i was in a dream. no more running and hiding. no connection with the previous dream except they both had one thing in common.
someone was trying to kill me.
on another note. my eyes has been red itchy and swollen since yesterday and i couldnt take it anymore so i got my mum to get me the optrex eye bath thing. and when i washed my right eye with it. i peered into the used solution to see what what floating about. dust and the usual until something else caught my eye. it resembled 2 things. 1. eye shit stuck to dog hair and 2. an insect with long antennas.
shit.
on friday being such a nice and PERFECT friend i am *cough hack cough* i went around damansara and bought 15 star newspapers after my moral exam to cut and exchange for 3 live and loud tickets for november girl nat...loud orang emz and NOW THINNER THAN ME WONDERFUL (where there is a funny sms to this particular nickname which i shall relate abt later on) and then we went to mid valley to get the present i intentionally wanted to get for nat on thursday but we were late for her dinner "=_= which i now want instead but the bf keeps going ITS NOT YOURS. DONT TOUCH T_T. and ended up getting a colourful big ass water dispenser thing with some cooling fluid in the middle which i will probably never use and only got because i think its damn cute. wtf. im broke and im wasting money like that "=_= oh the broke post wasnt me btw.
AND THEN we decided to be kiasu and die die no money also want to tr carls jr cuz their adverts have like omg mouth wateringly gorgeous pictures on them but MAHAI ah. what a damn dissapointment man T_T. the beef patty was pathetic and dry and not exactly tasty. their beef chilli thing was.. soo.. bland.... the beef chilli cheese fries were soooo salllty and bleargh..not what i expected.. and THE PRICE. OMG LETS NOT EVEN START. next time u want a proper burger head somewhere like TGIF or something to that effect.
and intentionally wanted to go hunting for prom dresses but i felt really tired so we went home instead where i slept like a pig while the BOY DECIDED TO PLAY DOTA ON MY NEW STUDY TABLE. ZOMG. HOW LA TO RESIST YOU TELL ME. HOW HOW HOW.
and then i received an sms THAT SAID SOMETHING LIKE THIS. not accurate because i deleted it and i dont remember the exact words.but it was something like this "I miss you T_T i want to see how fat you've gotten and let you see me so you won't feel so bad about how fat you've gotten after you see me. Can't wait for whitney! muax"
"=_= zomg... this is exactly like the birthday card she gave me where she said what a wonderful friend she was to take time off to actually get a card and write in it "=_= so we brought her out on a car ride to kepong cuz i had to pick up a top i bought. AND SHE BROUGHT HER BIO book where she stated that it was for emergency because i am known to tell her we're going somewhere for a while and end up not sending her back until a few hours later EXCEPT THIS TIME it was her who opened her big fat mouth and said SHISHA. @_@. which is where i had my 1st dota game T_T. where i got totally pawned and where i had to read the description of every item now because got damn cibai a lot of new items and i cannot remember what the old ones were even for "=_= wah so malu can. i actually got pawned by the computer on normal mode. wtf. so sad can die. eh but ive improved since friday and i found my new hero love. mwahahahha.
where we were later joined by mr short attention span. miss tiny waist and humoungous boobs and mr fair who i have no actual nickname for. and mr short attention span had to make me feel even crappier abt my dota game because he stopped for quite a while also (but of course not as long as me la. few yrs okay) and HE TOTALLY PAWNED against the computers in insane mode T_T. WTF. WHERE IS THE JUSTICE IN ALL THIS.
finally got home and intended to study but ended up in dreamland instead. dammit.
and then sat we were suppose to get up early to go to the digi streetblast thing cuz babe wanted to join the skateboard comp but he had a migrain so i spent the morning googling up cured for migrain and testing them on him. hahaha. wtf. and expected the best cure was what else but *sweat cough and more sweat cough* then i had to have itchy backside and played 2 rounds of dota looking to see what new cute characters i can find. i there was this fairy dragon which was like so uber cute dahlah cute summoh use fairy dust as weapon! ZOMG. but i totally sucked using him "=_= and had to stick to the other 1 i fell in love with. ehhehe.
den someone called and we hopped over to 1u where i ended up spending MORE MONEY THAT I DONT EVEN HAVE. fuck wei. why la my debts getting bigger and bigger T_T den got home where i told myself i'll take a short nap then study which resulted in me taking a short nap waking up for dinner den watching tv and going back to sleep "=_= wtf. whats worst b4 i watched tv i tried looking for my bio text books because from what came out in chem n physics i have concluded that the reference books have too much unneccesary info which we only need in school exams "=_= BUT ALAS!! MY FORM 4 BIO TEXT BOOK IS MISSING!! and its sunday morning and it's still missing and it's going to be afternoon soon and here i am still procrasinating. yah allah. why am i like that. how to be a vet when i have lousy bio results! HOW? YOU TELL ME HOW!
yup. i've finally decided on vet school. or so i hope before i change my mind again.
pfft. cant wait for spm to end! KICKBOXING. wait for me u 2 love loves!! later u all super high level im like noobie there so charm u know! FRENCH CLASS! (anyone got any recommendations?) and the boy said THE GYM! finally he has agreed to go to the gym with me! *wishful eyes* he has refused for the past 5-6 months saying that the gym is boring "=_=. BANGKOK EMILY! SINGAPORE! n wtf. HOW can i forget my yearly ritual of BALI baby! mwahahhahaha! wtf. no money yet so many trips "=_= how long i have to work i wonder.
and i checked my nuffnang search link and my blog is linked with "i want to fuck jolin tsai" , "i\'m still not over a break up from narcissistic" and "people who talk loud" @_@. how on earth are these even relevant @_@
wah shit. damn giler long post.
wa but i dont think as long as the taylors post @_@ still waiting for confirmation on whether my post is SAFE to be posted. lol. on word it had 22 pages. wtf.
Sweetheart, hope you give it your best on this one.
I miss you sweetie, i really do. Love love..
Saturday, November 24, 2007
hmmm.. broke!
and i also started dota again. omfg. im doomed. i have exams on monday and instead im staying awake seeing whats new in dota. wtf. so dumb can die.
Thursday, November 22, 2007
18 August 07 @ Bamboo, Lisha's farewellas u can see.. pictures FROM WAYYYY back..
and yet i havent gotten pictures from lisha and cin vin @_@. and wtf am i doing here i should b memorising nilais.. its like midnight..
tsk...
i was having a really bad hair day...
dont believe me?
look.
there you go....
ah. my fav pic
huhuhu
whats with mah eye bags @_@
0_o
hm
blurry
i know my eyes are closed but me likes
gin. cin vin. sandy
bad body also @_@ wtf.
i wanna kill someone
lan c
=)
meow
see what i meant by bad body
kissesss fooorr meee
toilet picture. hehe
anyway... lately people have been telling me that im not hot anymore and im turning chubby and cute instead. and OH MY GOD I WENT THROUGH SOME PICTURES AND OH MY GOD...
i need to get back in shape T_T
and i miss my hair.. sigh
im not sure if this hair was after my samsung advertorial shoot or after i came back from bali and took my braids off. lol. pretty cool hair. bohemian chic.
eh look. my arm and face so much smaller. omg
ok i know i look weird here but look! i was so much thinner than i am now. and this was just like last year or something @_@.
i miss my hair.
sigh..
this is such a bimbo post.
but i am a bimbo.
sigh.
so im not sure if the examiners will mark it correct or wrong T_T.... since its like not in the books and stuff.. sigh sigh sigh.. but logically its right wad T_T since if u use electrode the electrolyte is the constant.. if it doesnt affect then why would the electrolyte be a constant. i change also makes no difference what T_T right right? T_T...
sigh. so sad
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
just a few more days.and i got my tickets for live and loud turn on the pops for free! hohoohh.
NAT HY U ALL GETTING OR NOT WAN!!
WHITNEY HOUSTAN WEI!!
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
i wonder why some people just cant be more responsible and stick to something when they've already said it instead of cancelling out on you less than half an hour before an event.not a big deal?
trust me. if you were in my place you would be pissed as hell.
imagine ure going out with a friend and its 15 minutes more your friends is suppose to be at your hse to fetch u and you're all dressed and excited.and the plan was made a week ago. and then your friend calls and says oh hes not coming cause he doesnt feel like it. hm.
not really relevant to what just happened. but im still quite annoyed non the less.
at least have the courtesy to give prior notice so as not to screw up plans.
heh..
goodbye A.
FUCKKKKKKK
addmaths was a whole shit lot easier than i had expected and there was actually a chance of me getting a for it BUT i had to screw up by being careless or forgetting to write my answers down after i found it.. and i lost an estimated total of 25-30 marks through such stupidity on my first paper. omg. so dumb can die.. T_T
please let paper 2 be as easy and please let me not be as careless T_T
there is still hope *shiny eyes* but i seriously doubt it "=_=
Monday, November 19, 2007
OH MY GOD> I SCREWED UP ENGLISH LIT. OH MY GOD> I AM SO SAD CAN DIE.i fucking screwed up my poems.. i only read one theme but all the questions were reallllyy weird and i wasnt sure how to answer it so i did another theme which ir ead like over a month ago and so i got all my damn quotes TOTALLY OFF. OMG. SO DUMB CAN DIe. 25 marks!! OH MY GOD.
slaps self multiple times.
but i havent read my short stories and poems and my ride will be here in about 2 hours.
ARGHH ARGHH *tears hair*
WHY COUDLNT THE EXAMS BE DISTRIBUTED MORE EVENLY! #^$&^*#&^$&#&$
Sunday, November 18, 2007
i dont really have time to explain what this is all about at the moment but there are hungry people dying all over the world and more than one dies every hour just so you know. and here we are throwing food and wasting food and eating like cows.so why not donate some food to these poor countries?
just click on the banner below. it's a vocabulary game where each time you get a correct answer you donate free rice.
it's fun. addictive and for a good cause so why not give it a shot =)
my mind was on panic mode almost the whole night.
it kept going.
"oh screw. another hour. oh screw. i dont know the whole fucking form 5 syllabus of chem and physics and i havent read my english lit novel. oh screw. another hour. oh god. why am i here."
and now im blogging. wtf.
im so retarded.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
10-14th November 07just random pictures taken on different dates.
two adorable snails i saw in my garden
damn cute can
close up
spice my rabbit.
yes thats how messy my room is. and that fuggy's cage. hohoho. he gets to stay in my room ;p
miko the doll U_U
and then when you're studying which is what im suppose to be doing now instead of blogging here...
you spot your camera just a few inches away from your hand AND YOU END TAKING PICTURES OF RANDOM THINGS ON YOUR DESK...and occasionally yourself..
i love my lion stapler ;p
so cute right!
yes i have a pretty white desk now which isnt very pretty anymore cuz its covered in junk "=_=
double chocolate oat cookies from ikea!
yummm..
and then i got lonely so i brought fuggy onto my table.
hehe.
joined by deedo.
coke. i survive on coke to stay awake @_@
coffee makes me sleepy U_U
wah. what thick lips @_@
sigh. sienz.
with flash.
and without.
ok toodles. im off to continue studying. T_T.... sigh...
just 2 more weeks. 2 more weeks.
T_T.
feels like forever.
oh er. whats this?
meet fuggy! my number 8th guinea pig!. mwahahhahaha
he's a cutie aint it. =)
25 random facts about me
1. i'm a compulsive shopper (oh as if u didnt know already)
2. i like sleeping naked.
3. i have unbelievably low self esteem
4. i like ginger thins but i hate ginger.
5. my favourite colour is not pink i just like pink. and i have no fav colour.
6. i hate worms.
7. i'm allergic to my guinea pigs. (and yet i cant stop buying "=_=)
8. i eat more than some guys.
9. i don't like alcohol.
10. i can't dance for nuts.
11. I LOVE LOVE LOVE costumes. the sluttier the better. =p
12. I LOVE art supplies like pretty colour paper and paints especially those little knick-knacks for scrap booking.
13. i don't own a polo but i have a ralph lauren shirt i wear to sleep @_@
14. I CANNOT RESIST buying bikinis.
15. i hate the dentist.
16. i adore french and im planning on taking it up after spm.
17. i like indie music.
18. i have a size 4 feet or maybe even smaller @_@
19. i like maths but i hate things like physics and accounts which requires maths @_@
20. i have 4 dogs, 8 guinea pigs, 5 hamsters and 2 rabbits.
21. i like toast.
22. i love fruits and some veggies.
23. i want a pink or white fairlady
24. im a gamer. ok was. i havent had time to start anything again @_@.
25. i dont like wearing bras unless its sexy *O*
and i tag
1. Wonderful Wong
2. Samantha Chin
3. Alea Amin
4. Jessica Wong
5. Sandy
6. Pinkpau
7. Emily Chai
8. Natalie Chai
9. Vivien Sam
10. whoever wants to do it
it's my tag i can tag as many people as i want!
english lit. add maths. physics. chem. moral? what were the jabatan pendidikan thinking. suicides. pfft.
and i have super duper no time to study all in time "=_= pfft. and yet i had to be itchy backside and accept the nuffnang thing to the taylors hospitality thingie dinner tomorrow. omfg. what was i thinking..
free food? "=_= pfft.
you know whats the best part. i havent even finished reading my english lit novel. hahaha. wtf. so smart can die.
and physics ah. can say i onli know the chapter of waves from form 5 la. the rset of form 5 i like never open book and read b4 lar @_@. chemistry. no need to talk man "=_= . dont remember anything.
argh argh .. die die die.
and today dumb est was harder than expected "=_= wtf.
oh and i have this addiction to lontong lately. and even when im really full and on the verge of puking i still want to eat lontong. and i know most of you probably dont know what lontong is "=_= SHAME ON YOU.
but i'll blog about it another day. dead tired now. off to sleep so i can cram chemistry b4 the dinner morrow T_T.
Thursday, November 15, 2007
oh my god. i just had the scariest thought. remember these 2 racoons that i absolutely fell in love with and kept blogging about in pet safari but i just dont have the space and money to actually buy them.. well.. last week.. someone bought them and they wouldnt tell me who it was except that it was a chinese man..then i remembered the man that kept buying all the hamsters and guinea pigs... omg... what if he was planning on skinning them?? i mean. the racoons were there forever so why only get them when they were finally adults? oh my god.. i can't stop thinking about it and i want to cry..
i've gotten so attached to the two babies that i've actually even names them T_T and they've gotten so used to me that im the only person they will hold hands with and just sit quietly and be stroked T_T oh my god.. i cant bear the thought of knowing my poor babies were being skinned...
the last time i saw them they were in individual cages ready to be taken away and they held so thightly onto my fingers and stared with me with such big sad eyes that i cried right there on the spot T_T.. i mean they looked so sad and their eyes were red and watery and it looked like they wanted to tell me something T_T oh my god...
ARGhHHhhhHh..
or maybe it's just me being paranoid but i really can't get the thought out of my head... it really really hurts me.. T_T i was even trying to find someone i knew to actually get them but T_T... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....
screw thiiiiss
theres been this petatv circulating about the cruelties of animal skinning and i got really angry all of a sudden especially when i remembered that my once favourite child stars ashley and mary kate olsens have decided to start their own clothing collectiong where all fur is genuine.
wtf is wrong with you people. so young and yet the fact these adorable animals are being bred caught and captivated then SKINNED alived doesnt seem to matter or even bother them. yes. most animals are skinned alive because it's less messy and its easier for the fur to come off entirely with the skin.
and dont even start with me about people in the past hunting animals for their skin to keep warm. hello. in case you hadnt already realised. welcome to civilisation =)
sigh. i had a lot of things to say but i just feel really down at the whole thought of it.
anyway to those who dont know what a mink is.
well.
A mink is any of several furry, dark-colored, semi-aquatic, carnivorous mammals of the family Mustelidae, which also includes the weasels and the otters. It is naturally found in North America, northern Europe, and most of Russia west of Ural Mountains. Mink fur has been highly prized for its use in clothing, with hunting giving way to large-scale mink farming. Its treatment has also been a focus of much animal welfare activism.
SO.
most fur coats come from animals that look like THIS. some are minks some are not.
why?
please someone tell me why.
everytime someone sends me a video of it and refuses to tell me what it is i end up in tears.
please help stop this stupid trade.
my last job i took before i THOUGHT i would study for spm which i didnt which therefore means im screwed which furthur proves my point because im here posting this instead of studying "=_= wtf
theres actually a lot more pictures but i havent received them and i wonder if im ever going to receive them T_T theres even me with some pretty horses that i absolutely fucking fell in love with T_T i love horsies. dont you?
gin. carmen. joyce. wtf.why i look so shell shocked.
joyce and gin with pink polo men and a blue one at the side? 0_o
cheh. im shortest but i get to be middle ok. cheh wah. us with out fav lil kid =)
justina. gin. carmen. joyce. sabrina quigley. oh @_@ i dont have pic with sabrina @_@.
maria. julia. gin.
us again. this is one of my fav pics =)
gin and maria. smart hot sweetheart
the three.
spoiler!
eh i know im short okay.
kisses.
wah lao. dman obvious how short i am. wtf @_@
no need for introductions.
BIG THIGHS OMG BIG THIGHS
and TJ my fav bimbo photographer. who speaks like a girl ;p hahaha
ps. dont you just hate it when you fall asleep with your arms curled around someone only to wake up to find they're not there T_T sigh.
sarky. oh well.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
today feel slike a depressing day. im not sure why but since i woke up from my afternoon nap there's been a depressing atmosphere following me..even at dinner at the usual place in yulek felt different... it was quiet despite the amount of people..and a weird eerie silence was in the air.. hm..
feels like somethings sucking my energy out..
like seriously. look whats going on around you
sejarah sucks ass.
ok goodbye.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
its 8.31p.m and i still havent finished a single one of my sejarah book "=_= wtf. gonna die. lucky its objective tomorrow.my glasses feel heavy @_@
and i still cant feel that SPM is tomorrow. WHY WHY WHY !_! i feel like going to sleep "=_= pfft.
anyway thanks to everyone who've wished me good luck on msn and on the phone. im sorry if i havent been replying due to whatever reasons like not being at the computer or being asleep or something like that. but thanks a lot. im really going to need it this time @_@.
tsk. procrasination. when will i ever learn my lesson @_@.
and good luck to the others out there XD
Baby, make your SPM a good one. I wish you all the best. Can't wait to bum in your room while you study on that new table of yours, i miss you.
Love love, Fat.
Strings give me the shivers..
Strums of the guitar, keys of the piano..
Sends me to another realm full of feel..
Saturday, November 10, 2007
why la like that T_T why do interesting things like the reformation happen when i have spm to study for la "=_= why cant i go and read more interesting news about whats happening now instead of reading my sejarah book. which btw is so sad can die because i intended to finish reading form 4 by today but i have only read the first measly chapter. but i had yummy dinner today. hehe.thai food at taman muda XO better than expected.
and my room is a mess "=_= pfft.
rarww! i want to eat you! >=(
i think hiatus mode starts now. or maybe random updates when i feel like it ;p
Thursday, November 08, 2007
they say bad luck almost always comes in threes.one - four
two - five
three - six
yes. six. the number of times i cried yesterday.
and never would i have though that you would be the last person to make me cry last night.
maybe i should have just stayed home and cried myself to sleep instead
because it looks like that what i'll be doing except for different reasons instead.
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
after a relatively long time of not putting my tear glands to use, today marks the end of that somewhat positive streak. in a good way and in a bad way.today i cried a whooping total of 5 times. yes. 5 bloody effing times. and at different time intervals for that matter of fact.
the first would be this morning when i saw some of my favourite teachers cry. despite me absolutely abhoring school the past one a half years, the teachers do still mean a lot to me and seeing them cry during our so called farewell today just broke my heart.
and abt 15 minutes to half an hour later when i thought i was finally done crying i looked around and this solemn silence descended upon me and tears welled up in my eyes again. i'm going to miss them. despite all the absentees and what nots. they have never once doubted my ability and have always expected me to do well. and after today. i kind of want to do well. just so not to dissapoint them.
sadly. im not sure if thats possible seeing the conditions in living in. i cant even study in peace. in the afternoon there's banging and drilling. in the evening and at night the parents are home and i get constantly yelled at and nagged at even for studying. i study in the dining room i get screwed cuz ppl need to eat. i study in the living room i get screwed because people want to watch tv or i made a mess of the table and my books and papers are strewn all over the place. i study in my room. i get screwed because im not sitting at a table. there isnt even a bloody study table in the house for me to use. wtf am i suppose to do?
and so i go out and study but thats not easy either because that means i need money and my allowance have somewhat been cut off and reduced immensely over the past months. sigh. and then they yell and complain again about me not staying at home and always going out. wtf. im so sick of all this. how the hell am i going to get through the next 3 weeks i really wonder. i havent started studying AT ALL and now all my parents do is fuck my mood up to study.
the 3rd time i cried today is when baby had to go home because he had to beat the jam AND he didnt want to see my dad.honestly. even i wouldnt. its weird how clingy ive gotten suddenly @_@ i mean he's just going home for the night and already im bawling and crying my eyes out @_@. how retarded is that.
the 4th time i cried today would be during my previous post abt my father. his voice and expression annoyed me so much that when he left i couldnt help myself but cry in frustration at the tension and distress im constantly facing at home.
and the 5th time was just before i started this post. when my mother started her daily 24/7 nagging and yelling session. my brain is so crowded with unnecessary thoughts hearing people talk that way to me right now just breaks me. how much can i really take. as immune as i sometimes am, even i have my breaking points. im having so much stress right now. and its not even spm stress but family stress. how the fuck am i going to face spm.
is my lucky streak in school finally at an end? maybe this time im really going to fuck up my papers.
and i thought november would be a good month. sigh.
as most of you who actually know me you would probably already know my fascination with plays and musicals and how i would make weekly trips to KL Pac for whatever play is happening. sadly i havent been there in months due to time and money constraints..
and then. PETER PAN AND CHICAGO comes to town. LIKE OMFG. I AM LIKE AN AVID FAIRYTALE FAN and like OMFG ITS CHICAGO. but... IT HAS TO FALL ON SUCH INCONVENIENT DAYS... ie. SPM anyone? pfft.. and the ticket prices are pretty much out of my league at the moment due to the fact i havent worked in quite a while and i keep adding new pets to my house "=_=. sigh.
and everyone is talking about it T_T im hearing it everywhere and reading it everywhere. SO SO SO SAD AND HEARTBROKEN. T_T i want to scream.
and at the most inconvenient time my dad decides to be asshole of the year again. wtf. just because i take one day off to allow him to actually talk to me now he acts all high and mighty again and thinks he can fuck around with me.
he demands i give him respect which truthfully i have none left for him. what sick father slaps and screams at his daughter in the middle of the street past midnight and calls her a whore and a slut and claims she sleeps around with datuks to get things. hello. wtf. and then instead of slapping the one who wronged his daughter he slaps his daughter?
and he expects me to respect him after what he did to me?
at the beginning he knew how pissed off i was at him and i refused to talk to him for months and so he starts being sweet and sends me all sort of lovey dovey messages but the minute i actually let my guard down he does it again.
fuck this shit.
i cant stand this bloody house.
Saturated
Film
Black and white
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
for some annoying reason. blogger has refused to let me upload pictures for the past 2 days....
Monday, November 05, 2007
oh btw. im like obsessed with the group feist so if any of you guys have like their full albums downloaded somewhere or something send to me T_T *big big eyes*
its by table basis for 10 people.
but the CHEAPEST table is 10k. and the pricing goes as follows 10k,20k,25k and i 4got what are the rest.
WHO WANTS TO SPONSER ME.
*big eyes*
pretty pretty please?
Sunday, November 04, 2007
so ive checked the live & loud thing 07 and im definitely going for acoustics *O* and im still debating whether to go turn on the pops or not. expensive wei T_T. n go also only for like 3 ppl onli.. HOW lAaAAA..someone telll meeee..
and dionne warwick T_T i want i want i want. T_T hooowww howww howw..
oh n den genting got jolin tsai and kitaro T_T i like jolin tsai. so how now. cannot ah. bleks...
ARGH. OMG WTF BBQ. WHY SO MANY WAN. HERE GOT LIKE 1 K ADI.. OMG WTF BBQ.. and its like exam so i like cannot work for the money. omgwtfbbq! HOW HOW HOW. anybody can get me tickets? ;p
but the very moment you take a step out of the car you just cant hold it any longer and your flood gates open.
seperation. the very thought of it hurts me. even if its for the briefest of moments.
what i wouldnt give to have you here with me right now.
i miss you baby.
eventhough u were with me just a while ago and i can still taste your lips.
Thursday, November 01, 2007
12 Oct 2007 @ Guinea Pigs 1st bathwell.. first bath for 3 of the four guinea pigs in this set of pictures.. the 1st one is a veteran already. he adores the water..
anyway to lazy to caption.
Fury
