i am so seriously beyond pissed off since last night.
my dad has recently coverted to christianity and 2 weeks back my parents were harassing me about my room and my pets and how i had to clean and tidy eveyrthing up by thursday which was yesterday because ppl were coming to apparently cleanse the house.
now you see i grew up being able to see ghost until i got my denggi fever and i kept being disturbed by them so my dad sent me to some chinese bomoh thingie and i dont know what happened after that but i cant see them anymore and the older i get the less i can sense them. the bf on the other hand seems to attract said ghost wherever he goes. dont ask me why la. maybe its because he’s etnic and his tribe memang communicate with them wan but he always dun wanna layan them onli. wtf
anyhow so i always believed in the whole chinese magic mumbo jumbo thing and i was expecting another chinese bomoh to come cleanse the house the usual way la….like ive always been experiencing…
on thrsday morning i awoke to the sound of english chanting and singing so i ignored it and went back to sleep….then the parents started sending the maid up to get me up so that they can com cleanse my room..wtf..so okay la..i go down and then instead of being introduced to some chinese bomoh guy.. im introduced to someone called
PASTOR *inserts name*
and i was dumbdounded for a second and my eyes went all wonky like this 0_O
but okay la..whatever la… they wanna do whatever they do la.. and then my mum took that gold necklace that you see me always wearing and i wasnt told what they were going to do with it but i didnt think much.. and just continued eating my breakfast with the boy before getting him to try teach me my current favourite piano song by yiruma who is now my fav piano composer. wtf. all your fault natalie. damn emo can his songs.
and then they started singing and saying things like dear jesus please forgive their sins and whatever they have done to anger you and all that la…then i heard them asking for family picture and stuff also.. so i was like..omg..what are they doing.. but then again i didnt think much about it UNTIL I WENT UPSTAIRS AND SMOKE STUNG MY EYES……………..
also i didnt think much about it because it hadnt occured to be what the hell they were burning and so i proceeded to close my windows and go back to sleep.. i awoke with a piercing headache which i ignored and played witcher until it was time to go to the airport.. to send natalie off whom i originally wanted to dedicate a post to until last night (the incident that induced my anger and annoyance at writing this post)..
so i reached the airport and immediately puked and then eveyrone started saying my nose was turning black-ish which is rather uncommon because when im sick it turns purple-ish and when im having fever or heaty it turness reddish.. (theres this lump on my nose which changes colour according to my health and mood. dont ask me. i was hit by a basketball last time and then it appeared)
i was in a crap mood the whole time and suddenly my whole body just became weak and i slept in the car ride home. at home i decided to look at the burnt items and realised it was our chinese alter and the statues of some of the gods and hell.. i was dumbfucked……….. @_@………..
i mean you wanna convert to christian then okay la but is it really neccesary to burn those sacred things so that god will ultimately forgive us for our sins and as proof that we are faithful to jesus meh? crazy people. as a child i always wanted to be christian but the older i got the more against it i was (not that i am against christians la but i mean me converting to christian. dont take offense. i dont think theres anything wrong with being christian) the reason of this being that churches started being a little bit too extreme and saying things like if you are not christian god will not love you and he will lave you to burn in hell and rubbish like that. not all churches la. but you get my point okay so the more i wondered about the whole faithfulness and stuff. and hence im happy being a floaty person in between eveyrthing that just believes in god and stuff but not attached to any. aihya. complicated la. maybe if one day i feel like it i’ll blog about it which i highly doubt..
anyway back to the story……….and then the boy said………..i think thats where your necklace went…….. and then it dawned on me………. OMFG MY NECKLACE!!! i am damn attached to it can and i get very insecure when it’s not around my neck.. hello..its mine wei.. i got give them permission to burn it meh.. wtf.. and i got sooo angry and nearly cried before feeling like puking again and collapsing on my bed……..
after that.. i had one of the worst nights i have ever had in my life. nightmare after nightmare throughout the entire night. everytime i woke up and went back to sleep a new nightmare occured but each somehow resembling the other and having ppl try and kill me. aihya..sounds so stupid here but they always sound stupid unless you’re the one dreaming it la. and for 10 hours straight it went on…….with the occasional waking up. and when i finally got fed up and woke up for real. the same headache from yesterday afternoon hit………………….
coincidence……….. or something else…………
you tell me……
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm…but whatever it is i am still very angr about the whole burning process and stuff!! ARGHHHH!
GIVE ME BACK MY NECKLACE!!
