i am witnessing one of the weirdest thunderstorms i have ever seen in my 18 years of life in malaysia.

the lightning is flashing at rapid successions without stop and the sound of thunder can be heard every second or 2. the sound occasionally resonates throughout and it feels like the whole earth is shaking with its wrath. this has already been going on for well over half an hour.

the lightning strikes are so rapid and constant it looks like someone was aiming a gun at something and shooting bullets in an angry display of murder or self protection.

even more amazing is that the lightning strikes seem to be happening at an amazingly dangerous distance from me right now and i have never seen lighning flashes so clearly at such close proximity in my life before.

every line and branch of each lightning strike looks like a piece of art. like a branch of a wooden tree set aglow in the dark.

beautiful; yet so threateningly deceiving.

like rouge coloured lips shiny and plump. just a taste and it’s poison seeps into your blood stream without mercy.

so deeply enticing these pretty streaks of light.

okay “=_= i realised i have more than a thousand backdated pictures i havent uploaded.

woe is me.

there’s something strangely comforting about the ways the melodies travel into my ears as i sit in my room contemplating life itself and savouring this unusual comfort of solitary life.

tunes of mellow heart felt songs float about flittering into the inner depths of my soul and as corny as it sounds; every word renders true.

where would we be if music did not exist; for i am no musician myself. failing at almost every form of instrument i lay my hands on yet in a way these strange melodies seem to bring almost every form of emotions thought possible into a vivid story of their own.

tears. smiles. anger. frustration. contentment. music seems to be the very soul of these human emotions. capturing every perfect moment in a well written line or two paired with a tune of a melody so endearing nothing else matters.

even a song can be one of god’s many miracles. =)

omg.. its 530 am… and im still awake.. got the racquet back and have killed a total of more than 5 mosquitos but it seems their numbers never decrease……

it feels like there is an army invading and their swiftness and ability to disappear in mere seconds astounds me.

nothing seems to deter these hybrid mosquitos.. not any form of repellent nor mosquito coil and they attack even in broad daylight. yesterday in a petrol station nearby i witness dozens of them flying around leisurely and just biting whoever came near…as if it was something normal……..

why isnt anyone doing anything about this increasing problem T______T

i have never seen or been attacked by so many before in my life. not even when i had dengue fever did i see so many mosquitoes.

i swear i friggin dont know whats bloody wrong with the people in my house.. blardy hell.. if it wasnt for the amount of pets in here i think i would have packed my bags and left ages ago… niama…

i have 2 gigantic ulcers..one in my inner lip and another in my inner cheek!! i come home and i feel nausea and sick and im being attacked by mosquitos again.. so the bf goes in search of my mosquito killing racquet and then we remember my sister came in this afternoon and took my racquet from my room…..

so i message here and she took it into her room.. and i ask her back for it and she ask me to go get it myself? and so because i am feeling nauseas and im not wearing pants i ask the bf to go up and get it…… a pretty long time passes by and he comes back down empty handed..

so im like wtf……. and he tells me.. your sister asked you to go get it yourself?? hello.. like wtf.. dahlah its my racquet.. and dahlah he already walked all the way up and still she dun wanna give back … as if very fun like that…….. so annoying can die…

and thanks to that im in a very shitty mood right now.. fucking effing great.

wowwee.. wake up early for class tomorrow and no sleep tonight again! *cheers*

*edit : wtf… i just spent the past 10 minutes hurling my entire dinner out.. at first it was just a little.. i stand up flush the toilet and suddenly a whole gush comes out.. wtf…..and i feel like puking again T________T*