i had a letter all written in my head,
to tell you my thoughts,
and why i was sad.
but fear i did,
the words no longer flowed.
nothing at all like how i had planned,
for fear you would leave,
not abandon,
i know you would not.
but leave like u did,
whenever your thoughts went amock,
silent and swift,
you would dissapear in a shot.
i wish i could tell you,
but i know i would choke,
but i really do love you,
i hope that you know.
yet often i wonder,
where did he go,
in person he’s here.
strange,
feels like im alone.
could it be,
that i have lost my boy,
the boy i first saw,
the one who made my heart flutter.
no more surprises,
no more everyday wishes,
why am i always the cause,
of all your sadness.
i wish i could dissapear,
maybe then your smile would be softer,
and maybe your laughter louder,
eyes i once loved to stare at,
would hopefully finally be back.
strings of attachment once so short,
an hour apart,
and sing songs of misses,
would then depart.
where did they go?
it feels like it’s gone.
along with those strings,
i’m struggling to find,
i know you’re tired,
but so am i.
but all i want,
is for us to be one,
happy and delighted,
like how we were once.
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