i never asked for your money. neither did i ask for mine back.

all i wanted was for you to at least tell me when there isnt enough and when it was being withdrawn.

it doesnt feel right to suddenly be told your bank acc is almost empty without even knowing when the money had been withdrawn.

but you’re always so headstrong.

so sensitive all the time.

getting angry or annoyed at everything and everyone.

maybe you’re right.

maybe im not worth your time.

if only you would take the time to notice the growing gap between us and how different you once had been.

or maybe i’m just not in your heart like how i used to be.

i know what you’re thinking. i know what u want to say.

but these hidden tears and scars aren’t things you would have noticed.

Gin’s Fav Choc Chip Cookie Recipe

Important Notice

you can also reduce the amount of sugar which i tend to do alot but it depends on your taste buds. you could make the batter with less sugar first and then taste it and if its not sweet enough add more =)

Directions
1.Preheat oven to 180 degrees.

2.Beat the shortening, butter, sugar, egg and vanilla together.

3.When well mixed, mix in the rest of the ingredients except the choc chips.

4.Add the choc chips in last.

5.Bake for 8-12 mins or until golden brown like the picture above.

the batter should be stiff and not wet and watery. it can be. a wet and watery batter will make the cookies flatter and spread more white a stiffer dryer batter will make fatter and smaller cookies that dont spread as much. if you think the batter is too wet,just add in a bit more flour. =)

its discomforting.

i never thought i would reach the day where i would become afraid to blog about my own thoughts of feelings. maybe it’s just the pms talking; or perhaps we all just lke to console ourselves about the prospect that it is just the PMS talking.

it isnt about the strangers who read and talk about it like they know me but more about the people around me who actually care enough to know. a fear of being read and predicted like a map laid out in front of a person’s very eyes.

i dont like being seen through. i dont like people being able to read me.

i guess that’s why i’m such a recluse. i like being alone yet i hate being alone.

i contradict myself so often..

i wish i was just that little bit more common.

i could have sworn i posted something yesterday.. cant rem what it was though..oh well…

bad day.

pfft.

9-10 July 08

this is some seriously addictive strawberry shaved ice thing in daily fresh, ikano.

its a lot nicer than the ones in 100 yen shop.

cookie baking day

havent made these in a long long time

mmm.. choc..

my fav choc chip cookie recipe.

and then he got tired of spooning the stuff so he made them into this “=_=

product of the bfs cookie dough mass

“=_=