2 October 08

squigee and my feet

pink bunnies are love

baby and adam

squigee all grown up.. i think?

or maybe not so.. haha

adil and ghost cat.

love love

happy boys

hari raya food

mmmm

im hungry “=_=

i miss tying up my hair =S

happy colours

pigs

with babies.

tomato pasta. looks good no =3 hehe. i made it =D

purple coals

mint

geralds shisha pot. huhu

the boys fav frozen pizza “=_=

……….omg…………

i was with a friend today and i was telling her about how long it’s been since ive last seen coins in my ang pau! u know when we were much younger they used to put like one ringgit coins in these cardboard thingie.. its like a piece of cardboard about the size of an ang pau den it has 6 slots! or however many slots la depends.. and then they put coins in!!

DOES ANYONE KNOW THIS??

because apparently none of my friends know this “=_= and SO FAR..none of them has ever received coins before.. wtf wtf

i find this very amusing because those coin angpaus bring back a lot of memories and it was pretty cool collecting them 1 ringgit coins and putting them into my bank *o* and watching it all pile up.. like u see..eyer.. why so kedekut wan but when u actually count the number one coins you get.. it adds up to pretty much..

hell.. as the years increase my ang paus decrease “=_=

i remember as a kid i could easily get 1k or more..

now it doesnt even reach 400 “=_= ……. hahaha..sadness wei.

BUT SERIOUSLY?? do u guys reallllyy not know about these coin cardboard things?? *O*

i have an issue. there is this intesely annoying voice in my head that screams at me every few hours a day. it says “UPDATE YOUR BLOG GINNY!!! UPDATE!!” yet when the moment comes this voice shrinks and whispers “i dont know what to say”

and as annoying as it it, still there is that un-defy-able (i know there isnt such a word..) need to blog. about what? absolutely nothing would be most precise.

ho hum.

28-29 Sept 08

my forehead is GG.COM .. i should take care of my skin more =S

mine. Nippon Tei KLCC

with udons.. i love those adorable fish cakes

soba! his

with tempura again. mmmmyum.

so far it hasnt been a very good chinese new year for me. started off with bad waffles and fries BUT a really good long chat with my 2nd bf ;p whom i heart to bits. he came and got me despite the fact that he had barely any sleep for the past week and ended up almost waking his whole neighbourhood at 2 am because he set his house alarm off.. =3

and then i was woken up at 8 am when the so called vegetarian breakfast only started at about 10…only to find out THERE WAS NO vegetarian food “=_= … and i didnt really have much left to eat but a plate of veggies.. wtf.. but that wasnt the point..it was the whole woken up for nothing thing that got me annoyed considering i slept around 3.30-4. sigh sigh.

and then back to seremban it was… ONLY TO END UP CRYING THERE.. wtf freak.. stoopid siblings was watching AFC and there was this programme about the biggest chinese restaurants in the world.. in one scene.. THEY FUCKING SAWED A LIVE DUCK OPEN AT ITS CHEST AND PULLED OUT ITS BEATING HEART T_______T omgwtfbbq.. lim su ann!!the duck was those adorable white ones that you adore =( … can u imagine..the poor duck was 100% alive and watching the whole scene… arghhh……………..

and then my dad went oh! that is too much that is seriously too much then he went to check whats for lunch and exclaimed OH DUCK RICE!! VERY GOOD!! …………… wtf………… i swear i wanted to die right there.. the irony of the whole situation was funny in such a sad way i cried at the table and refused to eat anything but veggies again.. pfft.. my aunties and cousins thought i fought with my sis or something “=_= stoner.

i now officially swear off duck as well “=_=… oh well! progress to being a vegetarian!!

i swear sometimes im ashamed of being asian “=_= its always asians that end up doing shit like eating a monkeys brain while the monkey is screaming in pain.. pfft…. my bro was just saying how very soon i will refuse to acknowledge the fact that im chinese because apparently youre only really chinese if u can eat anything and not feel bad abt it.. wtf wtf…(not meant to offend anyone. he said it as a joke)

HOWEVER..the brother offered to pay for a UN trip to cambodia to help build roads..(his colleage wants him to go and he refuses so he wants to send me in his place..wtf) ive always wanted to do shit like that.. but…..true to my sisters words… i feel no compassion for human beings… pfft.. they take all hope from my innocence…. so…. would i really do it?? all the pain sweat blisters and 3rd world facilities *o* ………. ho hum. i wonder… to go or not to go =S anybody else up for it?

eh sorry la.. my blog forever rant rant rant.. im not a very happy person neither am i very humourous… in fact i barely even have a sense of humour.. i especially get annoyed at jokes that go like this (these jokes have been very frequently said to me)

person: EH..my car very dirty! go wash car for me la!
me: why? why i wash?
person: u work for good year what! so you go wash my car lar!!

person: hey..so where you studying ah
me: help
person: why help? because you need help ah?

…………..these jokes………..all they do is make me want to spit in their faces but no instead i smile and pretend to think its funny. oh the “joys” of growing up and having to live a life full of facades and artificial smiles.

…. well in continuation to my not so great chinese new year… something i would rather remain a tad bit more private made me feel extremely unaccepted and unwelcomed.

……..i will never belong or be accepted by them. and you never even try to do anything about it. never once was i ever defended in front of them. and tonight… the none existing invitation just makes me wonder…….

……….maybe if i left……. they would be much happier… and then maybe you would too.