i’ve always liked watching people sleep but that day i snapped at you because you have this uncanny ability to fall asleep while watching dvds with me despite the noise level. it was a very annoying thing for me because it was always you who wanted to watch the dvd.

today the same thing happened except this time you lasted through an hour. i know you tried. and today it was nice to have you fall asleep next to me because today you let your defences drop. and unlike your usual just dump me to the side as you fall asleep, today you clung on and every movement from me made you hold me tighter.

for the first time i decided to go home and i really didn’t want to. but i guess it was a good thing because today you let me kiss you a little more intimately than you normally would and you had a smile on your lips. i’m used to seeing your eyebrows furrow in annoyance because you’re usually late for something and you’re rushing off somewhere so it was a refreshing change to see you smile unknowingly.

“you’d be fine. you’re learning to be emotionless…”

and i wonder if you really know just how far away from the truth that statement really is because you’re wrong, i am just getting better at hiding the truth.