the past 2 days have been disgustingly tiresome for me. accusing eyes and degrading words being thrown left and right from people i know care for me. but the strange feeling of abandonment hangs still in the air and i feel aliented from those that supposedly seem to care.

initially i was not looking forward to this trip to singapore on friday. just too many things to do and deal with but right now i wish i could just sleep the days away and wake up in the bus and be swept away.

i have an exam tomorrow. such a waste of my time. moral studies. haha. bullshit.

i miss lying on my back in an empty pool. just floating half submerged, you tend to slip into a different state of mind. and for a moment of pure bliss, your head is empty and you forget the world. nothing else matters and you are you.