“the rarest thing ever happened. she laughed” - K.H

and that made me laugh and smile even more. undeniably the previous day up to today was one of my happiest moments over the past month. and sometimes you think, maybe just maybe all that pain was worth something because how else does one feel such unexplained forms of ecstasy if we were to go through all forms of happiness over and over again.continuously in a loop, happiness becomes nothing more but a daily repetition of a baseless routine. i am addicted; such is the sad state people perceive of my emotional state. highs and lows baby, thats me.

6.30 p. m : J.W Marriot for Prestige Magazine’s annual gala dinner. Think fairytales and 18th century love stories. the ballroom swept me off my feet and there i fell in love with the concept of being able to fall in love. candlelebras topped with giant gold leaf candles at every table, every corner; flicker softly in the dim romantic red of the evening. love songs of before my time and couples in the most detailed gowns dance hand in hand, arm in arm in the center of the dance floor. tables decked in the most splendid forms of tableware and the most blood red roses one would find, someone said i want my wedding to be as grand as this and i smiled.

it really was a beautiful sight. it brought me into the scenes i often played in my mind after reading one of my romance novels and it felt like i really was back in time minus the tall dark and handsome but that was fine. my “extended family” more than made up for that and being in their company always put me on a high because i know they care for me so much more than anyone would even know. think Fotoworx baby ILY guys. thank you for making me come even when i whined and said no.

12.30 a.m : Velvet, zouk. dance music of my time, my generation. birthday boys and my favourite engaged couple. mini shorts and mini skirts, shooters and champagne. sweaty hot people all around, laughter and flirts, feels almost like “home” again. dancing for the bride to be on stage with jessbabe and Cc.Yong, camwhore shots and randoms snaps. i laughed, got hyper and made new friends.

cheers to more crazy nights like this. =)

3 a.m : location, the “atmosphere” house. warm cuddles and kisses and falling asleep in a persons arms. oversized pants and t shirts that end up never coming back =p, i fell asleep in what one might possibly term as absolute bliss. morning sun, classical music and a strange sing song kind of wind, feels like my “cafes and shady trees”.

good morning world, today i am full of love.

and again its easy to believe in life’s bittersweet simplicities.