is it possible to wake up feeling like you’ve been drugged, dazed confused and drunk? my head’s spinning and the hearts thumping and it feels almost like im in cold sweat but i know it’s not that. so what is it baby? tell me what is it?
“you’re lucky because you can still fall in love…”
am i really lucky baby? am i? because right now it feels like i’m going to collapse.
no reply, no call, you even switched off your com because ure not on msn no more and yet still no reply. the familiar tightening somewhere inside my chest, the fall into that long neverending vertical corridor. feels like i’m on a rollercoaster ride and i’m just about to reach the peak. cant see shit. nope, just the vast expense of blue skies on my left and right. tilted backwards, you see the edge of the rails and thats it. i dont know how high or how steep the fall is but secretly i do and my hearts doing that crazy dance and i think i’m going to die.
maybe i need to stop falling in love.
maybe i need to learn that people really arent at all worth my love.
i want to be jaded.
just like you and him.
i think im hysterical.
one minute im laughing, the next im slamming my fist against the pillows and then im crying. and the cycle goes on. hello bipolarity check.
welcome back…
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