it’s still always surprising to see how different a person can be after we become comfortable incorporating them into our lifestyle. and as much as we try to stop having expectations of someone, it still happens. it’s weird when in the beginning it’s always yes yes yes, and slowly the yes becomes a continuous streams of another day and no.
sometimes i wonder maybe the horse in me you seem to see really does exist. how i find it a need to run away freely from everything all the time, to never stay in place long enough. yet as true as that seems, it just doesnt seem to register very well. or maybe it’s the idea that my exams are looming and every minute spent at home is another reason to beat myself up on how near it really is and i am unable to just relax. perhaps it’s the idea of how near the year 2010 is.
there are a lot of things just playing in my head and as always i am still unable to pinpoint anything. maybe it’s fear. or maybe it’s really nothing at all.
but i can’t help but get this feeling that what you think of me is not really me at all. how subconsciously i am becoming something and someone i abhor just by the prompting words you use on me sometimes. i miss my broke mamak sessions in ampang, and doing nothing but laughing with friends knowing that it’s fine that i only have 2 bucks in my wallet. i miss cheap thrills and nasi lemak in dirty places like 222. but what i miss most is being able to do these things with a partner who is actually willing.
maybe i should just shut up.
but for some reason, being with you has never felt so lonely.
see it grew!!
my fav grilled vege sandwich from Wondermilk Cafe! =3
er… nice to look at… normal to the taste buds
@wondermilk cafe Uptown.
Helps Corridor.
Chippy
sorry la. my dog cute can or not. i like to post can or not.
new hamster!
damn cute lor. wtf
this guys from Switzerland. i forgot his name T_T but he likes spicy food =p haha and hes damn hot
