It’s true when they say the more u say something is going to happen, it’s going to happen. And as you stand through the flurry of painful words and hurtful statement, you slowly learn to adapt and ignore the pain. A numbness easily recognised by those that have been broken one too many times.

But things are never as expected is it. The whole unpredictability of life just fucks u over, over and over again. And when you think your immunity level has gone a notch up, a few surprising words and phrases smashes through and you are left standing there bewildered and shaken from the sheer impact of the force and how badly it tore apart your heart despite that invisible wall.

For the longest yet briefest period of time, you find yourself floating in an abyss of past memories, of every event, every touch, every conversation passed wondering if it had all been a lie; a disgusting game of lie and pretend that you had so naively believed over the months.

How stupid it was to have fallen into a self dug graveyard. To allow oneself to once again be vulnerable and turn into those pathetic girls we often frown disapprovingly upon; you know, the ones that think the world is going to end because a guy left after a few weeks. Foolish creatures us humans can turn out to be.

And I’m still left thinking. Was any part of the past few months even real anymore…

The past 2 days of being sick and alone at home made me realise the amount of time people actually spend at work. I mean seriously, how do they even have time to do anything else?

Get up in the morning. Come back in time for dinner or possibly after dinner depending on the amount of work and how hideous the jam of the day happens to be. Just a few more hours left after that and then it’s time for bed. 2 days of weekend. One day of the two to run errands and clean the house which leaves only another day to relax. But even on those days, they have to start thinking abt the work load for the new week. Not much time left for friends and family now is there. =/

So why the hell is everyone just so damn eager to get their asses to work (ppl my age I mean). Kinda makes me sad to only notice now how little time is really left allocated for the working adult to spend with their loved ones =(

Yeah yeah, more pointless no direction post but this thing has just been hammering at the back of my head the entire day. Pfft.

Okay sorry I’ll shut up now. Nights.

Currently I am this sad mess rolled up in a bundle of red grey and brown with some white bits sticking out of my nose. Scene : the bfs bed room clad in the oversize red gatsby shirt, covered under the grey comforter and with tissue paper stuff into my nose.

Oh woe is me! T_T

My eyes seem to have swelled up as well and I can barely keep them open long enough to attempt to study or even read a book!! Putting a lot of effort into keeping them open as I type this!! Whooossshh! So much effort indeed! Pffft

Hahaha. No point to this post. Just wanted to rant about the runny nose I have that keeps dribbling snot into my mouth. Wtf. I’m so gross right.

Okeh. Eyes can barely stay open anymore. Off to take a nap. I hope. U_U

and here we go again with those damn mosquito rants but really its not like i have a very interesting life with anything particularly interesting to talk about anyway so i shall rant about these diabolically scheming pawns of satan >=(

now really why doesnt anyone just find a way to eradicate these stupid spesies anyway? do they really contribute to the world AT ALL?!?!start hunting mosquitos u nimwits! collect them in a huge glass container to see who has caught the most instead of going around hunting the heads of deers and seals and tigers and the likes. U_U

sorry had a pretty rough day and im pretty sick so went to bed at 10 only to be woken up TWICE by these useless bloodsuckers in the span of an hour. TWICE IN AN HOUR?! talk about hardworking and annoying. and now sadly i cant go back to sleep anymore ‘=_=

subconsciously i keep thinking one is buzzing around me and before i even get bitten im already scratching. zzzz.!! jeez!! not only can they harm me physically they can even mess with me mentally?! talk about super powers that they really do not at all need =/

and not that it helps that the weather seems to be cultivating their magically express breeding time either =( why arent there more people going around fogging!! oh how badly i miss the smell of that stinky but glorious cloud of white smoke! where art thou T______T

i need by body to go through some sort of mutative evolution where i become immune to these mozzies T_T

good night T__T  *emos in corner*

Nat. Nana. Sam. Gin

what are euuu looking at?

eeeee..oily faaccee..

hahahha.. fugging unglamorous pic of TJ max.

only she is capable of looking as cartoony as this i swear @_@.

over exposed. who is that faceless man. lol

iskl boys la!

wolverine “=_=

sam looks like u drink until very fwah har!.

emo!

Gwhen. Nana!

yahla. i like to post pointless pictures up. can or not now?

eh what is this plant called ah and whats its significance?

…something very strange abt this pic lo.. like damn hypnotic or something gonna pop out any moment. its a video on tv captured by camera. wtf.

anime eyes!

a more cutesey pic of TJ. lol

actually why does everyone i know look so cartooney @_@

sam being assigned to carry the camera bags. lols. its bigger than her!!

WAH THIS PIC!! i remember this being the worst noodles ive ever had in my life at Williams Tmn Megah and remembering that i wanted to bitch big time about them but forgot to. yeah well, after this day i have still not gone back there. dirty expensive and so not worth the time. GRRR