hesitant. i am cautious. i am unsure. yet i am in love.
it is painful to watch as your face crinkles in frustration as i listen to your heartbeat beat inconsistently like your uncertainty. i am here, you are there but we are really just unaware. i hold you, and i want to keep holding you, tight against my chest so you may listen to the heart that speaks the truth. an honest view of my trusting innocence. i want to tell you it’s fine, make you believe in the nakedness of my words but i know it wont work. it’s never that easy.
not being able to do anything to ease a loved ones troubles can bring about such helplessness. as if to watch as they writhe in pain while you stand there confused and at a loss of what to do. that sense of disability is so much more saddening than one could think possible, that i am caught surprised like a deer in headlights.
im right here baby.
right here.
and i love you.
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