so busy!!!

so hectic!!!

WHY WHY WHY?!?!?

i cant deal with this!!

AHHHHHH!!!

LIFE ON HOLD.

Okay.

How am i?

I am cranky, tired and extremely forgetful.

This is what going to school always does to me. Sigh.

Snapping at everything and wanting to go to bed by 10pm.

Hello.

I miss the lazy me that barely flinches at things.

Go away you angsty easily irritable tired me.

Good night world.

Here we go again.

Ginny going back into one of her emo rants that you guys are of course never surprised to find.

So how does one find it to be okay to completely neglect to tell their partners that they are going out for dinner to meet their friends and then telling them only about 2 hours before the occasion happens. There was of course and invitation but it included driving there oneself ignoring the fact of course that the venue of the place is less than 15 minutes away from where the poor waiting girlfriend is. Of course i can drive there but i don’t see the point of driving in 2 seperate cars to the same place and driving back in 2 seperate cars when its so damn near.

What i dont get is this. It’s perfectly okay to be late for anything related to said partner (late being half an hour to even 3-4 hours) but not okay to be late for said very good friends?

i guess in most circumstances im being absolutely unreasonable and i should of course just drive there myself but when you spent the night crying and then listening to sorrys that barely even justifies itself one would unaccountably be pissed off even more when instead of following instincts and fleeing somewhere else, one decides to stupidly go home and wait patiently at home as one always does anyway.

But whoop de doo. Mistake of the year because it was discovered making a short detour to get me is way too much hassle and it’s okay to make me wait but never okay to make others wait. =)

Most of the time, i think my immunity level has gone up but lately, i keep wondering to myself; perhaps it’s time to stop.

This level of breakage was just the tipping point of what’s already almost full to the brim. That one little leaf that could make the whole tower come crashing down but of course nobody notices. Nobody.

Especially not him.

Nobody but the tired circles under my eyes and that dull aching pain of familiarity.

The worst kind of drunks are really the ones that claim to be happy. And when i say claim i mean that they claim it to everyone else that they are happiest drunk.

Some say angry drunks are the worst kind of drunks but i really do think otherwise.

And its even funnier when everyone is confused whether said “happy” drunk is really all right at all and begin questioning those around about the sanity and condition of the drunkard. Everyone else can always tell that these “happy” drunks are really not at all in the best state of mind. Everyone that is except for themselves.

The underlining fact is this. Self proclaimed “happy” drunks are happy because they no longer give a fuck. In layman terms i think we can in a way associate this with being arrogant, selfish and conceited.

Everyone around becomes uneasy to a certain extent but they never ever realise or try to understand why because hey, “happy dont give a fuck” people really do not need to care so why even bother.

Hello 2011.

And Happy New Year to everyone else =)

This happened quite a while back and during that time i was fuming pretty badly and was on the verge of exploding on the spot but felt bad for the agent who was very nice the whole time and had technically been screwed over as well or so it seemed la. I know it’s been forever and i should have let go and forgotten already but i just saw the ad on TV today and went and youtube it again just for double verification and all feelings of annoyance and anger just started flaring up again. CONSOLATION to the whole thing was reading tweets about how crappy the ad was so now i cant decide whether i should be glad they keyed on their own staffs face onto my face or not (ie. edited the pic and stuck on somebodys elses face on mine). then again the video quality is so crap on youtube i cant really tell. maybe they just distorted my face a lot but im pretty sure its the face of one of their staff who handled us.

So the story was like this.

i went for a casting call at Shiroku Productions for the recent Tutti Fruitti Froyo ad being shown on TV. i didn’t get the main or the featured but they called me up and asked if i could do a favour by helping out as an extra. i figured why not. its not like i had anything better to do with my life anyway and being an extra was infinitely less work or SO I THOUGHT.

Even before production i was required to attend a fitting session with their full Tutti Fruitti uniform and this itself was surprising as it is considering that from all my experiences being a features as well as an extra this normally doesnt happen for an extra. i shrugged it off and went ahead anyway since the place was so near where i was staying. the day of the production was another mess all together. i was surprised to notice that the make up artist was my own agent even “=_= but thought nothing of it again.

IN FACT NOTHING OCCURRED TO ME until me and another guy who was also an extra in the tutti fruitti uniform were required to do our own individual picture shoot kind of thing will FULL FRONTAL FACE EXPOSURES. the ad was meant to be like a cartoon kind of thing so they used pictures instead of it being entirely a video. Me and the other guy were really surprised and we started talking about it. i finally went up to my agent and asked why this was happening because i thought we were just extras in the background. This surprised her as well and she went and had a talk with the production house and wtf they had the dumbest explanation ever!!!

I was told that it was all just for the client to see and they wont really use us in the ad but there was internal complications and they had to appear to look like we were being featured as well or some crap like that. i tried demanding for a pay raise because extras get basically peanuts for the fact that we do not even have to agree to having ourselves shown because WE ARE SUPPOSE TO APPEAR NON EXISTENT IN THE BACKGROUND. the other guy was a really nice and shy fella and he didn’t really dare to bring it up but he was definitely unhappy about the whole situation as well and kept urging me to ask about it and so i did multiple times which i guess stressed everyone out especially the production company.

i saw the ads today and they had 2 different versions. the other extra had a lot of face time and i really hope they paid him later on for it or something but i reaaallly doubt it because even the mains and featured didnt exactly get much. hell, he even appeared in both versions!!! he’s the tall guy in the tutti fruitti uniform that is like the ambassador ya. NOW YOU tell me does that look like a role of an extra to you!?!

and then i found myself in the traffic jam ad as well. ONLY IT WAS JUST MY BODY because my face had been replaced by someone elses. their own staff for that matter of fact. why didnt you idiots just do that in the beginning then?? i have a suspicion they were afraid to use my original pic because of the scene i had already created during production itself. but i really think everything had been handled very unprofessionally. and its impossible that the pic was taken again because i was there the entire time and the other talents in the picture had left way before me.

here are the 2 ads btw.

Productions houses like Shiroku Productions really give malaysian companys a bad name wei. and such a horrible ad seriously “=_= not like the ice cream is some cheap ice cream can find on the streets. i think its even more expensive than haagan dazs wei!!!