Okay.

How am i?

I am cranky, tired and extremely forgetful.

This is what going to school always does to me. Sigh.

Snapping at everything and wanting to go to bed by 10pm.

Hello.

I miss the lazy me that barely flinches at things.

Go away you angsty easily irritable tired me.

Good night world.

Here we go again.

Ginny going back into one of her emo rants that you guys are of course never surprised to find.

So how does one find it to be okay to completely neglect to tell their partners that they are going out for dinner to meet their friends and then telling them only about 2 hours before the occasion happens. There was of course and invitation but it included driving there oneself ignoring the fact of course that the venue of the place is less than 15 minutes away from where the poor waiting girlfriend is. Of course i can drive there but i don’t see the point of driving in 2 seperate cars to the same place and driving back in 2 seperate cars when its so damn near.

What i dont get is this. It’s perfectly okay to be late for anything related to said partner (late being half an hour to even 3-4 hours) but not okay to be late for said very good friends?

i guess in most circumstances im being absolutely unreasonable and i should of course just drive there myself but when you spent the night crying and then listening to sorrys that barely even justifies itself one would unaccountably be pissed off even more when instead of following instincts and fleeing somewhere else, one decides to stupidly go home and wait patiently at home as one always does anyway.

But whoop de doo. Mistake of the year because it was discovered making a short detour to get me is way too much hassle and it’s okay to make me wait but never okay to make others wait. =)

Most of the time, i think my immunity level has gone up but lately, i keep wondering to myself; perhaps it’s time to stop.

This level of breakage was just the tipping point of what’s already almost full to the brim. That one little leaf that could make the whole tower come crashing down but of course nobody notices. Nobody.

Especially not him.

Nobody but the tired circles under my eyes and that dull aching pain of familiarity.

So hello there.

I’ve finally found some time to blog again as promised though it will most likely be a wordy post which most of you never bother reading anyway.

Just a random update but here’s what I’ve been up to recently.

I’ve finally gone back to school and in all honesty I’m not really enjoying myself all that much at all. It isn’t the subjects or the lecturers but me and school just don’t gel very well together. Heck, i can easily wake up at 5am to work or at 6am to eat breakfast or even to go swimming but asking me to get up at 7am to go to class at 8am is a whole new feat all together that i have yet to master. Sitting in a classroom or a lecture hall and trying to pay attention drains so much of my energy on a daily basis that i’m normally down and out by 10pm the same day and that is after i’ve taken a 1-2 hour nap in the afternoon after my classes.

Aiya, i know i’ve only gone for a week of classes and already I’m such a whiny bitch but i really can’t help it wei and ironically enough, the only reason i am able to blog now is because somehow for some unknown reason, I’ve managed to get sick and am lying in bed with a fever instead of freezing myself in the classroom. Actually I’m wondering how much more i can even type because my head is starting to spin. HAHHAHA but i shall persevere and go on typing at least a little more just so everyone knows I’m really alive and I’ve not abandoned this blog yet!

Aside from that, did i tell you guys about my addiction with body balance class? It made me lose like 4 KGS in just over 2 weeks. I went about 3-4 times a week but i have to give up most of my classes now since class has started. SAD. And after not going for a week I’ve gone back to developing my sloth like abilities of having my thoughts battle it out inside my brain about whether to get up and go for a session or stay home and lump myself in front of the TV with what’s left of my precious time. Which if you think about it is really a lot of time left seeing as I’ve only got 3 days of classes but those 3 days of classes are making my other days fly by like the wind and all of a sudden it’s time for class again??

I wonder if there’s something i could use to make myself love going to lectures and tutorials. Perhaps i should try a self hypnosis?

OH OH OH!!!

I went to Penang for the first time since i was last there when i was probably 5 with no recollection of the place and i must say that I LOVE PENANG!! wtf wtf. I don’t really know why but that place just feels really familiar and comfortable to me and it’s one of those little cities that i could go wondering about and plopping myself in some random cafe and just stare out at nothing. I guess because it has such a seaside town feel to it and I’m just crazy addicted to the sea. AIYA I KNOW LA ITS NEXT TO THE SEA but what i mean is the infrastructure and the pace of the place lar!!

And for the record, i really didn’t think the Lorong Selamat Char Kuey Teow was all that. SOOOOO overpriced!! There used to be this kopitiam in Aman Suria opened by a penang family and homaigad their char kuey teow is to die for wei!! If you had anything to do with hypertune, you’d likely find the hypertune boys sitting there having their daily dose of it. I’m still devastated that the place closed down and i no longer no where they are. If anyone knows do tell me okay!

And and and I’m addicted to this jagung bakar special thing i ate in Penang. MY goodness it was soooo goooooodd! they actually roasted the corn with some special sauce that caramelises a little to give a sweet and smoky taste to the corn. Just thinking about it is making me salivate and that is on my first thing to eat list if i ever go back to penang again. I got it at a stall in Batu Feringgi outside Sunset Bistro. MUST TRY I SWEAR TO YOU!

Eh okay la. cannot type anymore. nauseas already.

BYE!

It all started a few hours ago when I brilliantly decided “hey guess what everybody??!?! Imma gonna make sugar cookies and gingerbread men/shapes on thursday for christmas!” And so, in the home without my baking goods, I randomly started googling recipes and reading reviews of said recipes.

As the tragedy of being a sucker for cute things would have it, I was reminded that I wanted a recipe where I could make use of my now “missing” cookie cutters. They’re around. I’m just not entirely sure where. And reading the reviews further about the many mishaps of using cookie cutters and the dough warming up into a goey mess faster in humid countries, I was rather detoured from my initial plan remembering the amount of effort and chilling time I’ve gone through in the past.

You see. Me and rolled sugar cookies just don’t do so well together. I like to take my time baking. And hence my dough always softens much too quickly. Added with the fact my cookies always turn out like shortbread and end up crumbling in your hands if held too hard, I was beginning to doubt my decision. Don’t get me wrong here. My cookies almost always taste awesome but I really just want a more solid sugar cookie I can randomly trash around in containers and frost without having to worry about it crumbling if I poke at it too hard. In my mind, I really hadn’t envisioned my sugar cookies to be crumbly and function like short bread where it actually melts in your mouth. “=_= I want that crisp breaking and that sugary goodness that induces hallucinations of sugar rushed minds.

Maybe I just haven’t found the right recipe, though this may have room for question since I pretty much never follow recipes anyway. The rebellious child in me always just has to tweak everything in accordance to my mood which more often than not is forgotten again the next time I try to bake the same thing. However if you ask around, I think I’m pretty hell good as a cook and a baker from my random throwing in of ingredients despite what my writing seems to want to imply.

Back to the point of the story. So while I was beginning to doubt my decision of making these supposedly simple cookies, it occured to me that I really didn’t have a choice. The inevitable had happened. In the midst of all that sugary thoughts, I had somehow developed a craving. A craving for that sugar cookie shaped like some random item that taste only like what home made sugar cookies can taste like. I am now stuck with that stupid craving no forms of store bought or commercialized cookies can replace.

I need my sugar cookies.

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This happened quite a while back and during that time i was fuming pretty badly and was on the verge of exploding on the spot but felt bad for the agent who was very nice the whole time and had technically been screwed over as well or so it seemed la. I know it’s been forever and i should have let go and forgotten already but i just saw the ad on TV today and went and youtube it again just for double verification and all feelings of annoyance and anger just started flaring up again. CONSOLATION to the whole thing was reading tweets about how crappy the ad was so now i cant decide whether i should be glad they keyed on their own staffs face onto my face or not (ie. edited the pic and stuck on somebodys elses face on mine). then again the video quality is so crap on youtube i cant really tell. maybe they just distorted my face a lot but im pretty sure its the face of one of their staff who handled us.

So the story was like this.

i went for a casting call at Shiroku Productions for the recent Tutti Fruitti Froyo ad being shown on TV. i didn’t get the main or the featured but they called me up and asked if i could do a favour by helping out as an extra. i figured why not. its not like i had anything better to do with my life anyway and being an extra was infinitely less work or SO I THOUGHT.

Even before production i was required to attend a fitting session with their full Tutti Fruitti uniform and this itself was surprising as it is considering that from all my experiences being a features as well as an extra this normally doesnt happen for an extra. i shrugged it off and went ahead anyway since the place was so near where i was staying. the day of the production was another mess all together. i was surprised to notice that the make up artist was my own agent even “=_= but thought nothing of it again.

IN FACT NOTHING OCCURRED TO ME until me and another guy who was also an extra in the tutti fruitti uniform were required to do our own individual picture shoot kind of thing will FULL FRONTAL FACE EXPOSURES. the ad was meant to be like a cartoon kind of thing so they used pictures instead of it being entirely a video. Me and the other guy were really surprised and we started talking about it. i finally went up to my agent and asked why this was happening because i thought we were just extras in the background. This surprised her as well and she went and had a talk with the production house and wtf they had the dumbest explanation ever!!!

I was told that it was all just for the client to see and they wont really use us in the ad but there was internal complications and they had to appear to look like we were being featured as well or some crap like that. i tried demanding for a pay raise because extras get basically peanuts for the fact that we do not even have to agree to having ourselves shown because WE ARE SUPPOSE TO APPEAR NON EXISTENT IN THE BACKGROUND. the other guy was a really nice and shy fella and he didn’t really dare to bring it up but he was definitely unhappy about the whole situation as well and kept urging me to ask about it and so i did multiple times which i guess stressed everyone out especially the production company.

i saw the ads today and they had 2 different versions. the other extra had a lot of face time and i really hope they paid him later on for it or something but i reaaallly doubt it because even the mains and featured didnt exactly get much. hell, he even appeared in both versions!!! he’s the tall guy in the tutti fruitti uniform that is like the ambassador ya. NOW YOU tell me does that look like a role of an extra to you!?!

and then i found myself in the traffic jam ad as well. ONLY IT WAS JUST MY BODY because my face had been replaced by someone elses. their own staff for that matter of fact. why didnt you idiots just do that in the beginning then?? i have a suspicion they were afraid to use my original pic because of the scene i had already created during production itself. but i really think everything had been handled very unprofessionally. and its impossible that the pic was taken again because i was there the entire time and the other talents in the picture had left way before me.

here are the 2 ads btw.

Productions houses like Shiroku Productions really give malaysian companys a bad name wei. and such a horrible ad seriously “=_= not like the ice cream is some cheap ice cream can find on the streets. i think its even more expensive than haagan dazs wei!!!