“i was in a similar relationship once. you know, a relationship like that isnt going to work out.”

“he’s only like that to you. i really don’t know why. he behaves and talks damn childishly. he’s never like that with us.”

“then again. maybe it’s because he loves you that why he hurts you that way.”

“but he loves you too!!”

“you know it’s different ginny, he loves me in a different kind of way.”

“i told you you can’t keep going on like that. you’re going to get sick and tired of it eventually. dont say i didnt warn you. i saw it from the start”

this conversation keeps replaying in my head. said less than a week back and the whole reality of it just keeps hitting me harder and harder. does a relationship with such personality clash and so many fights in just the beginning ever work? even if it doesn’t. how much of it is worth before the damage becomes to deep to recover? … sometimes… perhaps love alone really isnt enough.

and they say a dog and a horse make an amazing pair. haha. the irony. this time, the 2 stars clash. it really is epic isnt it.?

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when Im colder

In my life there’s been heartache and pain
I don’t know if I can face it again
Cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is…..
I want you to show me……
I wanna feel what love is…..
I know you can show me……

I’m gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me….
Ive got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me….

In my life, there’s been heartache and pain
I don’t know if I can face it again.

-Mariah Carey, I want to know what Love is

and i sit here listening to the songs you downloaded, stare at the screen that once belonged to you. i feel desolated.

all of a sudden, all your missing shirts are appearing in my cupboard. i turn and look at my bed and i see you lying there with that child like grin i had adored. the one i told everyone about when we played truth or dare in Otto’s house.

i want to curl up in your arms. smell that familiar smell and cry to my hearts content. hide in my safe zone. in your posession, safe from harm.

you look happy now. more determined with life. dreams i know you will finally make an effort to reach. you lost yourself when you were with me. i never figured out which side of you had been the real you. and i guess that’s what destroyed it all.

i remeber the image i watched on the mirror. and at this moment i want to run back in time. run to that memory where everything felt so right.

You flew like an angel to me
Then you fell and broke your wings
It was never meant to last
Your were just a ghost from the past

You said that you loved me, you said that you cared
So how could I know I had something to fear
I don’t know where you are, I know that you’re hurt
I should have been able to sense your alert
- Ghost of the Past,Bang Gang

i miss you. i miss you so much right now.

and i hate myself for how i had hurt you so deep.

You couldnt even bring yourself

(take this life)
Take this life
Take it all
In your hands
You were mine
I could smile
Again

and ive never felt lazier.

maybe its KL or maybe it’s just me. on holiday i thought abt exams and studying and how if im planning on going to Sydney for study break i’d lug my books along with me. Coming back i just found out classes started yesterday when i thought it was next week and all my head can go is FML. im skipping class this week. screw it.

im hungry.

where’s everyone.

why does KL feel so empty all of a sudden. it’s pretty lonely here isnt it. now that i really think about it.

” Tell me what is on your mind
Help me ’cause I’d like to know
What the hell is going on
Never thought I’d sing this song

Let’s not get started with the he said she said
Sometimes it just doesn’t go as planned “

never thought i’d start crying so early with my life back here. I’ve always loved KL, i still do but right now i want to be anywhere else but here.

Walking on the streets where nobody knows me and i know nobody. Ciggie in hand and tears running down my face nobody’s gonna give a flying fuck out there. And sometimes i guess that’s the way i like it.

I want to sit out there on those rocks facing the sea and just let time pass by me. Or lie in the grass and stare at the sky like i had all the time in the world with that warm sun splashed across my skin while that gentle breeze plays with my hair and tickles my smiling face.

KL no longer feels like home.

been waking up in this shitty mood over the past 3 days resulting in me hermit-ing myself at home close to tears every alternate hour.

i thought i was stronger than this. i should be stronger than this.

my heads spinning in unanswered questions. questions i dont even realise much less understand.
The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I’m an open book instead

I’m falling apart, I’m barely breathing
With a broken heart that’s still beating