So I know I haven’t been updating and this has by far been my longest time ever from my blog but I haven’t been home due to work over the weekend and the sudden discovery that my road tax has expired. Lol. Even now I’m typing from my spankin new blackberry and I have no idea if it will even publish. Bwahahahah. Okay so its not spankin new and I’ve had it for almost 2 weeks now but hey that’s counted as pretty new! Is it not?? @_@

On a totally unimportant note, the bf got star shaped lights and we hung it on the head board of the bed and its really pretty but I can’t show u but I posted a pic in twitter. Yes I finally got twitter and the usernames babyginz if anyone is even remotely interested in the random spewings of my life. Hur hur hur

And have I ever expressed my utmost hate towards them pesky mosquitoes?? I’m pretty sure I have but I must stress on this again because they really are the most annoying pests alive to me right now >=(

Oh. Final fantasy soon!!! Mwehehehhe. Rubs hands together in glee.

Off to play games now! Please let this publish please let this publish *puts hands in praying position*

gee whiz. so the princess falls asleep in a foul mood and wakes up in an even worst mood. tres perfecto. must be that damn PMS. else something is definitely wrong. HM.

and as always with absolutely nothing intelligent to say here but because her crankyness has stopped her highness from attending classes today in fear of snapping off everybody’s heads, she misses her peeps who have all gone back overseas =( nobody free to entertain me on weekdays!! *sulks in corner* and nothing better to do la obviously so itchy backside must open blog and type rubbish lor.

and to note, i’ve already gotten sick of driving. tsk. talk about fast.

i feel like splurging money on clothes imma almost never gonna wear. and heels. and pretty things that make me happy. =(

i want to eat japanese. I miss Hajime and Rakuzen and Kampachi.

i miss Natalie Chai =(

and Khue Ju Piau and Keegan Lee. please come back quick and rescue me. thanks.

i miss Bakerzins awesomest strawberry shortcake. LE SIGH.

i want to swim. i want back all my club memberships especially KLGCC  T___T stupid overpriced memberships that get revoked at 18!! where is the justice in all of this!! it should be at least 21 NOT 18!! i is anger.

i want poached eggs from La Bodega or Yogi Tree U_U

oh. why do i have such expensive cravings now when i just got the blackberry. nao no more money to throw. ahhhhhhhhhhh. need work work. but dreading work this thursday to sunday. 12 fucken hours. and at 7AM. FML. what on earth possessed me to say yes.. oh right. empy bank account beckons. FML.

and i do not like fitness first in the curve. so much for platinum. it sucks. me fav is still at Manulife. glorious big windows and sun!! and so much more private for some reason. ahhhhhh. pilates almost killed me last week. i is so weak. it is pathethic. my friend Sophie took 3 classes back to back on Sunday. Body combat, Body Jam and Body Pump and she was perfectly fine T_T why am i like that. cannot even survive one class. UWUWUWUWU.

chants “i love my life, i love my life”

just shoot me.

lately there has been a force surrounding me, tugging and pulling at me. a compelling kind of want to stay submerged in the waters for as long as my breath can take. day in day out, these swimming trips never happen.

“you are such a kid. i never said that. you came by yourself”

you’re absolutely right. i am a kid. and every promise every sentence you say to me is driven into my head unwilling to dislodge itself. so when will you learn to stop making me false promises and say things you never even had the intention to fulfill? i am a kid. fragile and like every painful memory, i will always forgive but never forget.

i have always had this theory about you.

i think if i were to one day disappear, i would not really be missed.

easily forgotten.

that’s what i think i am to you.

always trust your intuition. if your body tells you something bad is going to happen, something bad is going to happen.

twas stupid of me to think that everything was just in my imagination. to wake up feeling like nothing could go wrong despite all the warning signs like a dead fish and quiet depressive air. go on baby, drive on home and park your car in front of that shop you once so frequently walked into. come out almost a 100 bucks poorer for some unjustifiable reason drive on home and start work. that aromatic scent of vanilla essence and brown sugar, your heart goes “i hope it works like it used to and i hope he likes it.” cookies done made and packed, someones at the door. too late for another type of confectionary but oh well, valentine gift discussion begins and a few frantic sms-es exchanged on whether it’s a good idea.

KLCC gave a headache, perhaps it was foreboding and the shop i wanted to get his stuff from no longer exist. something else pops up into mind but oh dear, times running short. tomorrow there’s still time.

rush off to bangsar and last minute chinese new year shopping starts. a few happy girly pieces here and there and ever thought is always the same. “will he like it? what if i have to meet everyone? is this too casual? i hope he thinks its cute.” shoppings done and i am very very happy. much too happy.

and then the downfall just had to come. my happy day shattered in a matter of minute and a tearful car ride made another happy camper unhappy. now her heads in a mess as well. it’s the domino effect. he kills my day and my depression kills hers. looks like double valentine got shot.

it’s never a good thing to become attached the way i do. it’s never wise to love someone as much as i have the tendency too. this weakness gives them power. a power over my moods and asprirations. it really is never a good thing.

the bright side to the story.

i ate nothing today but a cookie to test. and finished off my day with a habit i kicked quite a while back.

my first meal = a stick of menthol.

this therefore equates to a skinnier ginny. i guess it aint so bad after all.

if this doesnt count as a tragedy i really have no idea what would.

i finally get around to making a new layout after switching to wordpress. i dig around for my wacom tablet lo and behold

TRAGEDY.

i saw ants happily making their way out of the crevices of my tablet.

THEY FUCKING MADE A NEST IN MY WACOM TABLET!?!?! MY ONE AND ONLY BOUGHT WITH MY FIRST PAY CHECK TABLET. FML.

i tried drowning them all since there’s pretty much no way i can save my tablet anyway.

after soaking it in hot water for almost half an hour. the ants just still kept spewing out like they were infinite T_T. must be those damn air bubbles that saved them. so i gave up trying to mass murder them threw my precious tablet into a plastic bag and used mosquito spray to spray the living daylight out of them.

i feel somewhat contented to have murdered the bastards.

u know normally i never kill ants because they are such hardworking insects BUT THIS IS JUST TOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH.

now i need to get a new one =(

*cries in corner*

happy early birthday to me =(