is something that isn’t new. Something everyone else sees and knowns about despite my constant attempts at pushing it away or making excuses. Funny though. I really did believe we finally moved forward.

Guess I was wrong. This isn’t the first time I’ve been wrong about you either.

Ah.

Life.

It always happens when we happily go around telling everyone how things are finally improving. Reality picks that as a cue to rear its ugly head and slap you back into situations that reveal the painful truth.

The truth still hurts.

Even after 2 years it hurts.

The same old things.

Same old situations.

And same old attitudes.

Still, I sit here waiting and waiting.

Hoping and hoping.

For something nobody else believes possible.

Why?

This topic has been making it’s way into my life much too many times this week.

From an incidence of a close friend of mine to a continuous stream of movies and DVDs.

Is it really a happy thing for two people who really like each other to not end up together? Even when the feelings never really disappeared despite being years since their last meeting.

Many have said the movies I have seen were not sad at all and I was crazy to have cried as much as I did because in the end, there were always still the memories they both held on to and they skipped the pain of a love that dies after finally being together.

But there goes that constant questions of What Ifs?

And how do both parties really move on with their lives while still never really being able to let go of the other?

Isn’t it unfair to their future partners as well.

Why is that a happy ending?

Maybe I’m naive. Maybe I believe too much in fairytales and love stories but it always, ALWAYS hurts me to see two people who clearly have chemistry not end up being together even for just a little while yet still have their minds and hearts keep rotating back to each other as the years go on by.

I hate seeing things like that happen.

…

So do it.

Do it when they’re right next to you. Tell them how important they really are in your lives because that special moment is fleeting and every second of hesitation spells another opportunity for loss.

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(I’m sorry this post is so messy and hard to understand. It’s been a while since I last wrote and the cascade of supposedly not so sad but incredibly sad to me movies have really hit a nerve with me and my head needs a little clearing..

This post has also nothing to do with me directly or anybody else I know in particular just a wondering thought as I find being in such a situation to be such a heart wrenching one while many are able to think of how it is actually better that way.

Bah!! Even I cant understand what I’m writing….

SORREH!)

Nobody is anybody enough to dictate another person’s life or to tell them the good from bad unless it’s stating the obvious like how drugs would damage your immune system.

But people are continuously naive and arrogant thinking that they are the all mighty and that they know best but it never occurs to them how everybody is built differently and how everybody has a personality system of their own that would incur a different outcome from that of themselves. Something bad for one person may not be bad for another person.

Lets take a boy and a girl for an example.

Boy dates girl. Boy breaks girls heart. Bad ugly breakup. Girl tells every subsequent girlfriend of Boy that he’s a shit person and he’s bad for them. But that isn’t the entire truth is it? Because at some point Boy is going to find someone he truly loves and things will be different for that special girl.

So learn to sit on the neutral fence more often and stop with the assumptions of other people’s lives.

You may just end up giving them bad advice.

And bad advice to the wrong person is going to destroy their lives.

All because you thought you were right and that you knew enough to put your nosy face into another persons life.

TSK.

approaches and marks a reminder of a truth that i knew from the start.

though all these months i’ve quietly prepared myself, on the 21st month it still hurts to read those words and to see that expression i have always imagined said to me after the 24th month.

some statements hint nothing.

but men are creatures that are unable to see the face value of most things and the seed of assumptions marks its place and roots itself grudgingly like a rock fallen into hardening cement.

occasionally the assumptions link nothing towards the non existing hint but still it damages the fragility of a simple hope and belief system that keeps a normal person continuously running instead of shutting off.

i know the truth.

so why am i still here?

11.20pm edit

I dont know why but this video is causing a lot of racist arguments instead of the point. seriously ppl??

hey,

i get it. maybe the dog was harmful maybe it wasn’t and i know it’s for the safety of the neighbourhood but what i don’t get is how they couldn’t have dealt with it in a better way =/

perhaps a little more educations on handling the matter like tranquilizing the poor fella and handing it to more experienced ppl to put it down or to send it to a shelter to see the dog’s temperament to try and give it another chance instead.

WHY is the video instead causing ppl to argue against one another about being of a different race or a hypocrite or things like that.

sigh.

and i cant help but wonder. if that dog was a damn poodle, would this video be getting more united awareness instead..

miehh

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At some point, I’ve pretty much given up on the whole animal cruelty stint.

A big part of me has died so many times that i no longer have much reaction anymore in compared to how i used to react despite that pounding agitation and the usual sting of tears.

But… this being done legally in Malaysia despite all the hoohaa that was created over the whole poodle and cat issue and all the press media, i can’t help but want to blog about this and ask why isn’t anything being done about situations like this?

Hey i get it that some stray dogs really need to be dealt with but isn’t doing it this way a little too much?

What really broke my heart was what the person who took this video said in his description,

“my 3 years old daughter asked me, what are they doing? what am i to answer her??”

Yeah, what do you answer her?

Actually,

What do you answer anyone who even understands the meaning of humanity?