Stuck in a jam on the way down to pavilion so camwhore la. Bwahahahah.

Yeay. Jay K is on radio.

Okay totally pointless and random post but whhaatteeevvvaahhh. As the title says

yet here we cower in our comfortable homes getting upset over things that really dont mean shit at all compared to the fragility and pain the less fortunate go through. and i cant help but to hate myself just that little bit more, for what i really cant seem to explain right now even if i tried.

my train of thoughts are all over the place as always and i cant seem to connect what i really want to say in this space today but its easy to understand why he would give up his home to walk back into that battlefield risking life and death all over again.

sigh.

sorry. incoherent thoughts. war movies make me emo.

You smell of strawberries as you step out dripping from the warm shower and watch as the steam slowly slips away and swirls around like a velvet ribbon left to fall slowly away.

You can feel the heat still sticking on your skin, and the air of the evening is warm like a veil around you. A natural kind of seduction that leaves your senses reeling in desire.

You look around the room and you recognise the musty smell of old books carelessly stacked in a corner beside the bed giving the almost empty room an intellectual air and you smile. The bed remains in the center your pillows left lying about.

The earthly tones matched perfectly with the wooden interior and you would enjoy nothing more but to lay across it naked in the arms of a lover.

On a totally unimportant note, the bf got star shaped lights and we hung it on the head board of the bed and its really pretty but I can’t show u but I posted a pic in twitter. Yes I finally got twitter and the usernames babyginz if anyone is even remotely interested in the random spewings of my life. Hur hur hur

And have I ever expressed my utmost hate towards them pesky mosquitoes?? I’m pretty sure I have but I must stress on this again because they really are the most annoying pests alive to me right now >=(

Oh. Final fantasy soon!!! Mwehehehhe. Rubs hands together in glee.

Off to play games now! Please let this publish please let this publish *puts hands in praying position*

it is time that has made things so much messier and it is time that has made that line of staying or leaving so much more blurred.

i love you too much to just walk away.

yet i am so tired i dont know how much longer i can stay.

and as always with absolutely nothing intelligent to say here but because her crankyness has stopped her highness from attending classes today in fear of snapping off everybody’s heads, she misses her peeps who have all gone back overseas =( nobody free to entertain me on weekdays!! *sulks in corner* and nothing better to do la obviously so itchy backside must open blog and type rubbish lor.

and to note, i’ve already gotten sick of driving. tsk. talk about fast.

i feel like splurging money on clothes imma almost never gonna wear. and heels. and pretty things that make me happy. =(

i want to eat japanese. I miss Hajime and Rakuzen and Kampachi.

i miss Natalie Chai =(

and Khue Ju Piau and Keegan Lee. please come back quick and rescue me. thanks.

i miss Bakerzins awesomest strawberry shortcake. LE SIGH.

i want to swim. i want back all my club memberships especially KLGCC  T___T stupid overpriced memberships that get revoked at 18!! where is the justice in all of this!! it should be at least 21 NOT 18!! i is anger.

i want poached eggs from La Bodega or Yogi Tree U_U

oh. why do i have such expensive cravings now when i just got the blackberry. nao no more money to throw. ahhhhhhhhhhh. need work work. but dreading work this thursday to sunday. 12 fucken hours. and at 7AM. FML. what on earth possessed me to say yes.. oh right. empy bank account beckons. FML.

and i do not like fitness first in the curve. so much for platinum. it sucks. me fav is still at Manulife. glorious big windows and sun!! and so much more private for some reason. ahhhhhh. pilates almost killed me last week. i is so weak. it is pathethic. my friend Sophie took 3 classes back to back on Sunday. Body combat, Body Jam and Body Pump and she was perfectly fine T_T why am i like that. cannot even survive one class. UWUWUWUWU.

chants “i love my life, i love my life”

just shoot me.

Bambi has a very pretty colour that is still the same now =)

with a white star on her head. cuteness

although we see a very evil look here.

and here LOL. but still damn cute ahhhhhhhhh.

scaredy cat.

camhore la.

lama tak camwhore kut.

semi transparent effect. UHUHU

hahaha so cute la both their expressions

random shit

eh they both look alike lo. Kevin+ Gf

the guy who rarely sleeps.

random @_@ they ask to snap den snap la.

actually i was just wondering if its real or fake flowers. wtf

cwlor with his weird expressions as always la.

the workers.

i have this thing for glasses T__T they are pretty mar. zzz

colouuurrfulll neh the bar

them again @_@.

semua hitam. rokok tak baik untuk kesihatan. HUHUHU. hentilah.

wah this mint damn awesome wan i tell you.

i totally forgot abt its existance lo until i saw this. DAMN DAMN cold wan T_T.

Tj

and the fat girl. wtf

phailed attempt to capture smoke. lol

white pregnant cat that looks like the puma logo @_@

i see doubles. wtf

awesomest burger at Rasta. not that i ate meat anymore then. lol. but it was awesome when i still ate meat okay.

initially i had thought it was you, but today i realised it turns out that it’s really just the same reason you seem to be so edgy over the recent days.

i have never hated the constant ticking of time as much as i have lately. and i am starting to feel that heavy heart of mine gain weight everytime the clock closes near midnight. that horrid realisation that it’s time i stood up and take that reluctant walk towards my car, to cautiously step in and prepare myself for that long quiet lonely drive back  into a place i felt i never really did belong.

it has been a trying one week.

i wonder how long more it’s going to go on.

sigh.

give me back my lazy days where i can just stay in a place for days without being condemned as a rotten kid.

i am very very tired.

my prairie dogs T________T *whimpers* they are such adorable creatures. belated bday pressie anyone? =D

hello. le retarded is still retarded.

this is edelin. she makes awesome cupcakes where chocolate ganach with strawberry puree oozes out when you bite into them. she made me some. i love her because she is awesome like that.

said awesome cupcakes.

still oh so retarded.

ooo..more lights wtf

heart shaped ones =D

i look like i did botox on my lips!! HUR HUR HUR

when i still had goldish hair. .___.

wah lizard like floating on air lo!

he follow us from cheras to sunway spk (next to desa park city)

proof of his heroism and his ability to survive the ride on a putra evo 3. wtf

i look like im confined in a box. hahaha. sorry la i found this picture amusing for some reason ma. go away. pfft

it feels almost like you’re dissolving away as you drive slowly along the highway towards the flashes that seem so far away. it jumps at you from a distance, a burst that lights up the night sky and then it’s dark again. you are driven towards it, pulled by its everlasting beauty and then thoughts of death and suicide suddenly feel so much more real.

 how easy it is for a person to take away another persons happiness and basic freedom.

how the idea of life itself becomes such a foolish lie.

tired.

much too tired for explanations. but its that point in time again, where this home only brings pain and the destruction of my blossoming joy.

much too familiar.

truth is, it is nothing more but just another repetitive encounter of the past of the present.

LET ME GO.